Pill Phobia

[Alecia6]

I thought I saw someone else post about this, but I can't find it right now.
I have really bad anxiety/depression right now. And when I take the proper medication it helps a lot,
The problem is, I have an irrational fear that someone has tampered with my pills, or that I will react badly to them.
It is like this each and every time I take a pill. Even if I have taken them before. I have the bad thoughts of what if this one is the one that is going to make me go crazy, or make me react badly.
I got so worried about this, that although I was taking my meds properly, and my anxiety was at a much better level. I still had this fear. And I allowed this fear to take over. I either told myself I was too tired to take them tonight, or not feeling well enough, or even that I didn't really need them.
I ended up doing this enough days in a row now, that my anxiety has increased ten fold. And I know the only way to feel better is to face this fear and take my meds again once more.
I have taken a quarter of the pill at a time..but really panicked about it, felt spacey, etc, and was convinced that they were doing something really bad to me.
I feel like I am in a really bad rut, and I would love some advice or support with this. At the moment, everything seems scary now to me, and I haven't been out of my apartment for over a week. I truly do feel like I am stuck with no way out, except for things to get much worse. 

[JP90]

You are not alone, I have been prescribed anti-depressants and because of my fear of prescription meds I havent taken any, and it was prescribed to me over a month ago. If you have taken it before and it helped, i would say its worth trying again, usually if you are going to react badly to something it will happen early on, my fear is starting new prescriptions, after i find i feel fine i dont have this fear anymore. If you are worried about someone messing with your presciptions have you thought about getting a lock box to keep them in? Might help ease that part of your fear maybe?