Sorry, I will preface this by saying it is going to be long. If anyone has the time to read I of course would be grateful. When I was 22 (now 37) I had an accident where I broke my jaw and went through a lot of years of jaw recovery and dental work (still doing dental work). I also then suffered from panic attacks which I was able to overcome with CBT. I was a smoker, quit around 27. I had a smoking relapse last year for about 6 months due to stress. Anyways, on to last year I developed a sore throat that wouldn't go away. I ended up going to the doctor who couldn't find anything wrong, and then sent to an ENT who did a chest and neck X-ray, and looked down my throat with a camera and didn't find anything. Put me on antibiotics. Felt better on and off, but the sore throat still comes and goes. It has been 9 months now. Of course I was convinced I have throat cancer and still do. Now this past week I have had horrible headaches and when I breathe deeply my chest hurts and is extremely constricted. I also have back and neck oain, I am convinced that I do have cancer of some sort and it is just spreading and I feel awful all over. I keep hearing stories of people (coincidence?) who know someone who was diagnosed with cancer and dies 3 or 4 months later, and I am convinced that is what is happening to me, since I have not had a ct scan or MRI or anything ...anything other than and X-ray. I have two little boys and all I can think of everyday is them growing up without me, and I have even been writing them letters to tell them how much I love them. I am worried they won't remember me. My husband is tired of hearing about all my ailments that he of course thinks are all in my head, so I can't talk to him about it anymore. I can't just keep going to the doctor because we have a $5000 deductible and no coverage except for preventative visits. I feel like I am never taken seriously at any doctor because of my past anxiety issues - last time I went to my GP I saw right at the top of my chart "U seeking issues...anxiety" so they all look at me like I am nuts regardless. It would be one thing if I wasn't really experiencing the physical pain, but I AM. I wish just one day I could feel good all over. I don't know, just feel helpless and lost, and unless I get a full body scan I will never be convinced I am ok. Am I crazy or do I have legitimate concerns?