Why the hell do I think like this!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Help :(

[Khadijah]

Hi all

My anxiety negative thoughts are really getting to me now

I have constant negative thoughts about having a heart attack / heart failure. This leads to panic attacks. I sit thinking 'imagine if a blood clot hits my heart right now and I get immense pain and die ' or 'oh gosh imagine i have a heart attack right now infront of everyone and die'..

I feel worse when I am alone, during the day when out and about these thoughts are very minimal.

Why the hell do I think like this!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[trainwreck]

Because you have a disorder that makes you think that way. 
At the core of it, isnt that what everyone here does?  When your mind is idle, it has to find a worry focus.

[lawkcrabb]

I am the same exact way...I worry constantly about my heart (despite testing that says it is great).  I am afraid to go too far away from my home because I feel comfortable that I will be okay with my family here...but like you, if I am alone it is WAY worse!  The thing is, our mind doesn't work like people who don't worry about things like this.  We need to work on fixing it...the way we think.  Coming here makes me feel good...knowing I am not alone...so know, you are not alone! 

Have you tried meditation or deep breathing exercises...I have been working on meditation and it seems to be helping (I have only done it for a few days).

[msgb98]

I think this way too.
If I have any pain I automatically think the worst. Trust me I have pain as I have fibromyalgia and Chronic fatigue.
I have talked myself down though from some very anxiety ridden thoughts.

I have heart health anxiety issues though too.
In the last year my mother had 2 14 hour open heart surgeries.
My father had a stroke last year too.
My father had a mild heart attack 3 yrs ago.

I had an MRI done last May because my  mother's doctor stated that the situation she had might run in families. It was to see if my heart was ok. It was at the time.

I have costochondritis and it is an inflammation of the intercostal muscles of the ribs and trust me it hurts and can mimic a heart attack. I have to assume though when this happens it is not a heart attack. I try to relax. I have to know that I am doing the best that I can to take care of myself and take the vitamins and eating the correct foods to help keep me healthy.

I do not have children that I have to worry about but I do worry about my husband. He is a slender man who is 50. He walks daily. His father died of diabetes at the age of 71. His father developed diabetes at the age of 49-50. So my husband is extra careful.

It might seem weird but what helps me to talk myself down frm this HA high is crying sometimes helps and therefore I am getting the toxins out.

I am going through some very stressful stuff at the moment so I am trying to talk myself down a lot.
Talking to friends helps too.

[marc]

Heart failure is typically found in the elderly. You can beat heredity as long as you watch yourself and
get checked regularly.

[Khadijah]

Thank you everyone for the replies and I am sorry to hear the way everyone is feeling.

I don't have any real symptoms to make me feel this way, so I am not sure why. My brain telling me I will soon have a heart attack and it freaks me out!

What does everyone do to try get over this?

I haven't tried any meditation or anything, I clicked on to a few vids so I should try them for a while see if they work.

Any one recommend anything?