I am new to this site as I am looking for some support and answers from people who have the same thoughts and experiences. I don't mean for this read to be long and boring but I want to get all this out.
My Anxiety started about 6 months ago. I was on a golf course and felt my throat getting a little tight. Then I felt warm, my chest got tight and I felt like I couldn't breathe. I thought I was having an allergic reaction so I quickly ran to my golf bag and grabbed some benadryl (kids liquid). Within about 45 seconds I could take a deep breath (I know the meds wouldn't work that fast and if it was serious that small amount wouldn't have worked at all). For the rest of the afternoon I sat in the clubhouse feeling a little tired from the medication.
Since then my Anxiety has ramped up. I now realize that I experienced a panic attack (or so I think). I have about 3 or 4 since and they kind of felt the same except now I feel like I am having a heart attack and out of breath. They eventually pass as panic attacks do.
I have gone to my doctor and he said that before we go the mental route lets rule out anything physical. So I have had blood work done, 3 EKG's, chest x-ray and a stress Test all within the past 3 months. I was also sent to an allergist where they did the back test and I came back as negative to everything (I have never had an allergy in the past except 1 bee sting, so the negative was not surprising). I didn't believe and was convinced I was allergic to nuts. So I asked to do an oral challenge. I sat in the allergists office eating peanut butter for 2 hours and nothing. Still couldn't believe it, so I bought a can one day and ate them in the lobby of the doctors office and again, nothing.
My stress test came back normal, but now the activities that I used to love like hockey, biking and even sex I can't enjoy. The moment my heart rate goes up, which it should with all those, I think there is something wrong and panic. I am a healthy 34 year old male that doesn't smoke and am not overweight. My blood numbers are great and blood pressure is normal. I also used to play hockey every week and stay fairly active.
So why, oh why can I not believe any of these doctors when they tell me nothing is wrong. I am currently seeing a shrink and take zoloft and xanax to keep things in check. I just feel that if I could get past the fact that there is nothing wrong I could get on with my life.
Does anyone have any insight on believing the doctors and tests, any wisdom or just comments that might help. I never realized how powerful the mind is and how it can control your life until it started happening to me.
Thank you in advance for your help.