Hi V:) You've posted a lot lately about your struggles, and this is groovy. That is what this forum is for, IMHO...having a place to come to vent, get some things 'out there', find some comapssion, an occassional reassurance perhaps, and just a place to come where you will not be judged, so to speak. Sixpack has taken the time to try to open up your eyes, I guess, about some of the possibilities that can help us seek out some relief. They will always remain possibilities until we try to embrace them. In order for us to have the best, most powerful chance to find some balance, we have to take an HONEST assessment of what is going on in our lives, what we are doing to help (or hinder) our situations, what we are doing as far as actions and habits that have been shown to help most anxiety peeps (eventually:). This assessment can be tough as we are struggling with some mental health challenges and the input and output of the assessment is going to be filtered through our anxiety issues. All we can do is really try to find a moment of clarity and do the assessment. It doesn't have to be a negative experience and, in fact, we should try to frame this exercise in a positive light as it is a step in our healing path. Seeking a healing path IS positivity, it is hope, it is strength, it is calm, it is security, etc. How wonderful!:)
Nobody is trying to make anyone feel guilty or bad about what's going on, currently. The important focus is what happens next - what your steps will be to try to help yourself as best as possible. Little things (small habits and, seemingly, meager actions) CAN make a difference. In the beginning of learning how to better help ourselves we are not looking for mountains to be moved and our anxiety to be lifted miraculously. I know that's what we want - we want to see dramatic results quickly (an anxious mind has little patience - I know:), but we are looking for some small successes in the beginning. Successes, which are overwhelmingly determined by our actions and habits, will build momentum. When we begin finding some of these successes, the 'work' doesn't seem so laborious or exasperating or time consuming. To me, so many of the wonderful, life affirming habits and exercises and techniques that we can embrace for our anxiety help are so incredibly great for ANYONE, anxiety or not. Those 'normal' peeps can improve their lives, as well....but us anxiety folks kinda have to do it, IMHO:) And it just isn't THAT hard....considering the alternative. And, us HA / AD peeps pretty much have ALL lived the alternative:)
I have found inspirations in some other people's struggles (and not necessarily anxiety peeps). So many peeps have overcome more than me and have found some level of happiness and success that they thought, likely, would never be found. When I feel sorry for myself (which can happen, none of us are immune to this, at times), I do think of some others and their trials and how they persevered and found some peace and triumph. I used to feel that nobody felt as badly as I did - that nobody suffered like this - that nobody could understand, etc. All these thoughts were so amplified and filtered through my mental health challenges. They were, of course, false intrusive thoughts, but at the time they made me feel helpless and hopeless.
We are NEVER helpless and hopeless. Just do not hope this anxiety crap simply goes away. And, so much (not all, of course) of the help, throughout your trials, will come from yourself. And, this will never change:)
Peace and Feel Well:)