Hi, so I have done some fishing around on this forum and after further personal reflection It is becoming clear to me that I have been struggling with general anxiety since I was a teenager,
I am now 28, the severity has peaked and lulled intermittently over the years, I saw someone online say about the possibility of the onset of general anxiety is as a result of our physiological reaction to prolonged experiential worry/stress/fear over general or specific circumstances which may ingrain physical/emotional habits which culminate in experiential anxiety and the physical outworking thereof.
If true, this certainly resonates with me and provides a logical explanation for what I have been experiencing.
following this logic it is no wander that I am plagued with this shadow called anxiety which follows me around.
I was also interested to read online that there is a possible link to memory and anxiety,
my basic interpretation of what was said on the matter is that anxiety may cause fragmented memory, if this is true that would explain why my memories as far back as I can remember are very vague and comparatively few.
My main concern is that my anxiety is playing out physically, sweaty hands chest pains, muscle tension, headaches, perspiration, trouble swallowing or too much swallowing all of which are adding to my anxiety, its a vicious circle.
I have been doing all I can to be proactive about this in my own way without doing any research and without wanting to unnecessarily label myself.
But I think I am now at a point where im realizing that for me its not about fighting or playing ignorant or pretending its not happening to me,
I need to stop and accept where I am at and whats happening with me and go from there. So here I am looking forward to the journey.