I mean, why must I be confronted with MS everywhere! It doesn't make it easy to let this fear go.
Over the last few days for example, Sunday night I had a terrible dream in which I was told I had MS. Not totally unusual I guess for how much I think about it, so I tried to let it go. Then Monday at work, a patient was telling me how they were getting ready to go visit his sister-in-law. He then proceeds to tell me she has MS and all things going on with her. (I won't get into it for the sake of the people on this board!) Then, as if that wasn't enough, goes on to talk about his son's mother in law who also had that, and more detail there. Of course I'm at work and this is a patient of mine so I can't say ok stop talking about that, I have huge HA over that! Which is what I wanted to do.
So that conversation ends (finally!) and I literally walk out to sit down at my desk, where a coworker out of nowhere (couldn't possibly have heard the previous conversation) brings up an actress who has MS (won't say who again, for the sake of the people here) and how she saw her in a magazine lately and starts talking about some things there that I again, didn't need to hear.
Got through that day, took my kids to an appointment on yesterday, sat down with a magazine in the waiting room, only to come to a huge 3 page ad about the latest MS medication!
Ugh! Why does it seem like it's everywhere all of a sudden?? I know I'm hyper vigilant to it but geez. Every time I even hear it I feel like I'm taking a punch to the gut, let alone hearing all the details about it. I try not to take it all as a sign, but it has just been coming up so much lately that I start thinking that way!
I don't know where this post was going lol. Just wondering if anyone else feels constantly confronted by their fear and how to deal with it? I guess I just feel like for MS being such a supposedly "rare" disorder, it sure seems to be always around