Extreme OCD Rant

[JunoX]

I am experiencing a full OCD meltdown right now and its the most uncomfortable and anxiety provoking feeling that anyone can have. I dint even know how I handled this as a child because as an adult, it is kicking my a-s.

I feel like everything is in chaos even though for a normal person, nothing much would be happening but for me, it feels like I loosing my mind. First this was a very tough month financially because I had to pay my property taxes and I'm on a fixed income. My husband is dealing with health issues so he's in disability like myself and we really struggle at times. The weird thing is that we made it past this months hurdle pretty well but I keep obsessing over it and fearing some impending disaster to take place.

Next I have this dentist appointment tomorrow, for a cleaning only but I'm dreading it for some reason even though I never fear cleanings.

Then I have this sand hill crane that keeps pecking at my living room window and he broke the screen, which I now have to fix. I'm horrified he is going to break the window next. I'm anxious to leave my house thinking he will return.

I also feel like my house is not clean enough even though I spend most of the day cleaning and organizing. I am also anxious for this cold weather to end so I can clean my garden. My OCD always makes me feel like there are pending things to do and I am extremely anxious to get them done.

I also almost had a migraine today but I stopped it by taking an Exedrin after I had an aura which left me blind for some seconds in my right eye. I have a slight dull ache on that side of my head but thankfully I didn't get a migraine. The problem is that I might get a migraine to morrow because of the dental cleaning and I am scared to take another Exedrin because its not good to take so many NSAIDS but its the only thing that prevents my migraines.

I also have a craft project I blog about which is taking forever to finish and I'm getting stressed out having to clean and organize every time I lift up a paint brush. Its triple stress for me to do anything because of this problem.

I know its a lot but any tips? Words of encouragement? Relate to the struggle?

[marc]

With your husband being ill, that in itself can be very stressful. I would try to occupy your time
with things that you enjoy and maybe talk to someone you can trust about what you are going through.