Hi V. Sorry you're struggling currently:)
My brother (who has more than just anxiety issues, as far as mental health challenges) checks his blood pressure probably 50 times a day - likely more. He has a minor blood pressure concern that is treated with meds. His Doc said that there simply is no reason for anyone to check their blood pressure more than once a day, unless given a very specific reason...and that would entail there being MORE than a normal blood pressure issue. Millions of peeps have blood pressure issues and they are best controlled by meds (if needed) and diet and exercise. If we do the right things, it almost always isn't a serious health concern and it has little bearing on our longterm prognosis....again, if we are doing the right things for it.
Checking our own blood pressure, too often, is a tremendously counterproductive habit. There is little ( to no ) real 'good' that comes from it. And, as you know the good reading's feel good 'high' is fleeting, at best. But, the 'off' reading (and they can be just marginally high) will send us into a tizzy, often. And, there are so many variables as to the true accuracy of self checking that go into the overall process of chekcing our vitals. A 'tizzy' is far more lasting its ability to keep us locked in a fear cycle than a fleeting 'high' holds in its ability to give us any type of intrinsic peace. So, where's the overall 'good' from this habit?
Each of us who self checks vitals believes they are protecting themselves. This simply is not the case. And, of course it feels risky to move away from these type habits. Our anxious minds lock into the fear driven notion, "Well, nothing really bad has happened yet while I'm doing ________ (insert bad habit), so I better keep it up - or else!" Powerful, but FALSE
, anxiety-driven reasoning.
Had a very bad day yesterday and it looks the same today but I have to go to work. As soon as my eyes opened I felt the nervousness and small panic, had to get up and go to the bathroom because of it. God please don't let me have another day of constant nervousness.
What do you do for your anxiety when you wake up? this would be a great time for you to give yourself 10 mins or so to practice some anti-anxiety exercises, techniques and affirmations:)
Peace and Feel Well:)