I just logged in this form because I have been looking for a place where I can give my personal experience with anxiety. I understand that the mayor topics on each post are panic, scary and awful posts; thats what anxiety does. But in my post I want to tell my experience because I strongly believe that we can all have a good life with anxiety. I am evidence, that better days can be found through a lot of work, investigation, acceptance and therapy. I have never used an drug.
Since I was about 14 I remember that I was very insecure and mostly anything scared me. Obviously I didnt know what was happening to me. Later on, it started to get worse, I became scared of several situations that made me feel like was literarly going to die. It was like ifa I had a monster inside telling me that pretty soon it was going to kill me, but every second. When I was about 20 I had my first panic attack, it is a very strong memory that I keep because of the strong emotions I felt. In the next months, I became really scared that it happened againa so obviously I helped it start again. This is the first time I visited a psicologist. It was one of the things that most helped me in my anxiety because it taught me how to deal with panick attacks wich is something completly possible. Panic attacks occur because of hyperventilation, so if you control your breathing, you will not have panic attacks. I am grateful today that I learned how to stop panic attacks because its one more situation I have overcomed. Later in my life, something happened. It was like if I had hidden the anxiety emotions through a long period in my life but now I couldnt evade i anymore, it was too strong. I think this was my worst part beause I couldnt consentrate on anything else in my life. I remember hitting the walls of my room because of the desesperation that the anxiety emotions made me feel. Everyday was a really impossible day to live. I cryed a million times, I tryed everything possible but absolutly nothing worked. I knew I was stuck and I had to change something in my doing to start finding different results. I also knew that i had go get professional help but I was very scared because some of my thought were so crazy that I was really ashamed of them. So for me going to a psycologist, was one of the bravest thngs I did in life. I also recommend investigatig a lot before going to a psycologist, it has to be someone with studies and expertise on anxiety. At this point, things started going upwards and no longer downwards. I started achieving (in my personal experiences) different things. The first thing, i learned that I was a very anxious person. Second, I learned why I was a very anxious person. It manly had to do with expeirneces when I was really young. Third, and very important, I faced all the mosnters that I had in my head and fourth, I learned several ways to deal with anxiety. Next, I will give a lot of things hat has helped me a lot, but the most important thing to know is the following: I live with anxiety because i am an anxious person, it has not dissapeared and I think it will never dissapear, I learned to accept it and to live with it. It is not my fault I am anxious, I do not control my emotions nor my thoughts, but what I do control is my attitude towards them and this really makes a difference. I live my ilfe in perfect conditions: i have a girlfriend who I truly love, i have the best friends in the world, I have the most complete family and I am a CEO at a company; and im also a person with GAD. Their aredays in wich it is so difficult only to get out of bed, their are momens so scary and their are times we feel vey alone; but remember that free will is more powerful than anything and wanting to get up and try as hard as you can to accomplish your goals, is stronger than any anxiety thought or feeling. Everyone of us have the possibility to do whatever we want with the things that occur in life with us, and anxiety is just a thing tha occurs in life. Its also very important to get to know how anxiety works, it will help you understand a lot of situations. I really recommend the following: exercise, meditation (mindfulness), therapy, anxiety journal.
I hope that this can help anyone. Remember their are very hard days, but we decide if we want to stay in our bed crying all day or if we choose another path.