I have worried like this about my health for years, I recently started new meds that I thought were working but I've just been feeling worse by the days help me
I'm not really going to address the HIV thing (other than say I agree with Marc), as it is your overall anxiety issues that drive your struggles, overwhelmingly.
Meds take some time before they can balance out in our system. And, there can be some side effects, perhaps, that can make peeps feel 'off' until we get used to them. That said, meds alone
are rarely the path to longterm peace...at the levels we desire. There are other actions and habits (which ultimately heavily influence our mindsets) that offer up tremendous potential in helping us seek out a viable healing path for our mental health challenges.
If you have a scrip for meds, then you see a Doc. What type of Doc? Medical or mental health? Have you ever had some therapy / counseling?
What self help actions do you embrace?
I know it's tough interacting with anxiety disorder / health anxiety. But, we CAN learn how to live very well alongside our trials. Intrusive thoughts are part of our dealings....no way around them, really. But, we can learn how to not react to them out of panicked fear. Through acceptance and pushing through the fearful thoughts, we can, eventually, help ourselves remove a lot of the dominance and tamp down a lot of the panic to where it might be a lot more manageable. From 'managing' our anxiety, we can continue to help ourselves (through our actions and habits) and learn to 'manage' more and the pattern would continue and, hopefully, the PULL ( compulsions) would gradually diminish in their abililty to steer us into bad habits and counterproductive actions. We embrace bad habits and counterprodutive actions as we feel we are 'protecting' ourselves. History and our own experiences, often, have shown us that we, OVERHWLEMINGLY, didn't (and don't) need almost all of these 'protective' measures. Mental health challenges drive this. We CAN learn how to really help ourselves with our mental health challenges. It is tough, exasperating, diligent work (then it can become much more natural and flowing:). We do not have to be dominated
Peace and Feel Well:)