No experience with remeron, but from your recent posts you really need to speak with your doc about taking a benzo to get a grip on the anxiety and most likely anxiety that may be increasing from trying to take AD meds. First, we all get nervous about possible side effects and addiction, this is a symptom to a large degree of the anxiety itself (and the depression that often seems to follow). I can tell you from my prior experience that klonopin is not that hard to wean off of once the AD is working and you are comfortable for a while, no need to rush. This assumes you don't drink, as that does not go well with benzos, but otherwise they tend to be very safe meds. When you are ready to go off them, just go really slow, finishing off with crumbs over as long as you need. By then the AD should have been working for a while and will make the benzo discontinuation easier. It sounds to me like you also need a lot of emotional support from family/friends/therapist or whatever other resources while you get onto an effective med regime, I know its not easy and I have my own struggles right now too with it. Recovery often seems so far off or impossible, but it does happen, did for me twice before for over a decade each. Claire Weeks books might also give you some relief in the sense that she clearly explains "nervous disease" and you can open the book and find all the symptoms that seem like some kind of horrible illness are all just anxiety/depression tricking us. She also explains how to deal with it with minimal or no meds, now I admit I'm not strong enough to put all of her ideas into practice (particularly with actual panic) but she has valid points and some good coping mechanisms that are useful even when you are on meds. Best of luck, this will get better.