I can't even remember now what made me snap out of it, but I finally did and haven't been back since. I still have some symptoms now and again, but now I'm able to realize them for what they are, nothing. So I see specks sometimes, occular migraine, no biggee, I get weird muscle twitches, buzzes, oh well they always go away..
A couple months ago I was to the point I couldn't imagine being the way I was for one more day and I would cry at work, at home, at my parents house, in public, it didn't matter.. I was totally convinced I was dying..
But guess what, I'm still here, and I'm not in the hospital, I don't have a terrible diagnosis, I'm just me, with all my quirky ways..
I know it's easier said than done because I didn't want to believe anyone, my brain had me convinced I had every terrible, deadly, disease out there.
Anti-depressants/anti-anxiety meds actually made me worse so I didn't take them like I was suppose to.
I went to 5 or 6 different doctors, had an mri, had numerous blood work done, and all of it came back fine but I didn't believe it.
My symptoms also didn't change or go away until.... lo and behold... I got distracted.. I couldn't make myself get distracted it just happened but when I did they went away.. Then I would get another one and obsess just as much.
Self-checking, google, and reading up on statistics will not help either.. And to be honest I had to stay away from here for a while because I thought I could just read what other people said about what I was feeling to feel better but in a weird way it just scared me worse that I was the one unlucky soul to have <enter any deadly disease here>.
It's funny to joke about now, but my husband and I both now how miserable I was for that time period.. I'd like to say I'm 'cured' but there's no way of knowing the future. I just know that today I feel fine, yesterday I felt fine, and I'm going to feel fine tomorrow.
There's hope, you just gotta work at it! :)