Hi everybody. I am a scientist by training, supported by 'soft' money, and I believe that every time that I know that funding is running out and I will have to find another job/position I experience anxiety disorder, although I have never been formally diagnosed. I am in that situation now, with funding likely running out after the summer. Reading the description of panic attacks and Anxiety Disorder symptoms online, I recognize the chest constriction (plus a general physical uneasiness that I cannot describe well), plus a sense of impending doom, negative thoughts that go around my head without me being able to control them, inability to enjoy everyday activities and lack of concentration. It is as if the fear of the impending future takes over and it is all I can think about, leaving me unable to enjoy the present. I try to tell myself that the last two times this happened I found another position without a gap (albeit making less $$ and doing something slightly different) so the terrible things I imagined and ruined my life for months never really became real. In retrospect, I suffered in vain - and so did my family, since I am not fun to be around when I am feeling like this. I also remind myself how other people are much worse off, but that only works for a short period of time. In the long run, these rationalizations do not dispel how I feel. I was on antidepressants once, and they did not make me feel good at all - and I am suspicious of my ability to benefit from behavioral therapy. Any tips and suggestions would be welcome!