I am still a mess. doc wants me to up Lexapro but i cant do it.

[rockbush]

Hi.
Jumped off xanax last monday after a quick taper (was on for 7 weeks of .25 4x a day). on the good side I am sleeping not so bad. 5-7 hours per night. The bad crying spells have kind of left. I seem to be doing more things.

The not so good: Hand shaking and body tremors are still there. ears ringing. the pvc's plus heart feeling like it is beating strange. Depersonalization pretty bad.

The worst i am obsessing about is my lungs/throat. I wake up in the morning with my nose plugged with thick mucus. I am constantly clearing my throat from the feeling it is irritated. then my breathing feels like if i didnt force it it will stop. I get this terrible tickle in my lungs and keep coughing. Tight chest and if i focus in on it will feel some awful feeling. This has been going on for about a week and a half now. It is driving me into obsession and distress. i feel like running to the ER.

I keep having thoughts that it is my heart or i will have a asthma attack (never really had asthma before except when i had a bad cold)

Then i think it is from my AD lexapro and I am having an allergic reaction to it that will send me into respiratory distress. Been on the AD for 2 months now at 10mg.

I went to my doc about a week and a half ago and he wants me to up the Lexapro to 15 then if i dont feel better in 2 weeks to go to 20. I had a complete crying breakdown there at the office that i can not do the increase. my start up side effect were pretty bad and I can not face jumping my dose up. now with the cough I have convinced myself I have some terrible health issue or an allergic reaction to lexapro. My god i am going mad!!!

I feel like everytime i begin to accept a new thing and it starts to fade there is a new new monster that pops up to take its place. I just feel awful right now and want to heal from all this!!!!
Robert

[2sungo]

Maybe the doc should give you some kind of benzo again to help you get over any side effects you might have with the increase.

[insights]

I wake up in the morning with my nose plugged with thick mucus.

For some reason you seem to be breathing through your mouth when asleep which it allowing the sinuses to block up, Robert.

I get this terrible tickle in my lungs and keep coughing. Tight chest and if i focus in on it will feel some awful feeling. This has been going on for about a week and a half now. It is driving me into obsession and distress. i feel like running to the ER.

All fairly indicative of anxiety, unfortunately.

I keep having thoughts that it is my heart or i will have a asthma attack (never really had asthma before except when i had a bad cold)

If in doubt get it checked by your doctor if you haven't already done so. But your description doesn't shout heart disease or asthma to me.

Then i think it is from my AD lexapro and I am having an allergic reaction to it that will send me into respiratory distress. Been on the AD for 2 months now at 10mg.

If it was going to happen it would have by now.

I went to my doc about a week and a half ago and he wants me to up the Lexapro to 15 then if i dont feel better in 2 weeks to go to 20. I had a complete crying breakdown there at the office that i can not do the increase. my start up side effect were pretty bad and I can not face jumping my dose up.

Side-effects when increasing the dose tend to be a little gentler than the initial ones, and usually don't last as long. Try going up by only a quarter of a tablet, i.e. 2.5mg. If this still produces severe side-effects, and it shouldn't, although anxiety might, then escitalopram also comes in a liquid formulation which will enable you to up the dose in 1mg steps.

I feel like everytime i begin to accept a new thing and it starts to fade there is a new new monster that pops up to take its place. I just feel awful right now and want to heal from all this!!!!

Anxiety has a habit of finding and exploiting ever chink in our psychological armour. Once you're on a med dose that effectively controls it, all these "monsters" should fade away.

Ian