Just kinda need help :/ near breaking point with this

[JOKOPOWER]

Well, basically since the 20th of January, (two days after I broke up with my now ex girlfriend of 3 years) ive felt like ive had a hard lump in the middle of my throat, right behind my adam's apple, the feeling first occurred that night right after I had some trouble getting down a Special K bar, (as i have been trying to eat healthier, and it was a good snack) I coughed and gagged on that, but eventually it went down, and thought nothing else of it...next morning I try to eat a banana, practically choke on it...feels like it gets stuck and wont go down, i drown it until it goes down, later I try a breakfast bar, and same problem, I just couldnt get the food down, and by now it felt like a solid lump in my throat, (the same feeling of having a popcorn kernel in your throat) few days passed and after eating nothing but pudding and yogurt, i went to my local doctor, they examined me, checked my thyroid, and my tonsils, from what they could see, plus checked blood pressure, heart rate and all of that good stuff, and nothing looked wrong, so they decided to send me to an ENT specialist...Went and saw him the next day, he wanted to perform an endoscopy, but being a wuss about that kind of stuff, I didnt let him, instead he ran a few other simple tests, again he looked down my throat, he pushed in and felt as I swallowed in different ways, after all was done, he diagnosed me with LPR, and gave me Omeprozole, 20mg, to take once a day, (this now being january 24th) so a few days went by, my worrying over it got worse and worse as it didnt go away, and then eventually, the first of February, i freaked out and went to the ER, in there they put me thru a CT scan, to which they said they couldnt find a thing, and sent me home, diagnosing me with Anxiety and telling me it couldve been a scratch or something from the special K bar, (this isnt the first time i was diagnosed with Anxiety, that was back in 2011, but for different symptoms not regarding my throat, but have gone about a year without any problems with my anxiety) so I went for a follow up with yet another doctor, took more simple tests, listened to my lungs, and my heart and sent me on my merry way, now it hasnt gotten any better, and now here I am on March 1st, still unable to swallow, I have eaten sandwiches, i have eaten pizza and stuff here and there...very slowly, and it all still feels like it gets caught, the severeness of the lump has fluxuated here and there, but was never as bad as the day i went to the ER, and right now, the way it feels is, i have a "sore throat" only on the right side of my throat, and feels like it ends at a lump, but still have the one behind my adams apple, also as a side note, I can tell the way I swallow isnt the way i usually do, and the way I chew and such, its almost like if i try to swallow something trys to stop me from initiating the swallowing reflex, ive also had a cough, that i feel like is caused by this, for a few weeks now, and no matter how hard I try i cant get it out...i just need some help, some peace of mind, is this Anxiety? is this acid reflux? or is it something more serious? IS there something stuck in my throat?? that they couldnt see on a CT scan? .... I cant afford another doctor, but I cant take this any longer! i havent been able to fully enjoy my life almost this entire year so far..and ive been contemplating self harm, I cant take this any more...additional info, im 19 years old, skinny/healthy, i dont drink or smoke...if anyone has any info please let me know

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[JOKOPOWER]

just looking for some sort of answer so I can enjoy my life again

[WyattsMomma]

Hi. From reading it sounds like pure anxiety to me. Difficulty swallowing and lump in throat are symptoms of anxiety. You have been tested and tested. A ct scan would not miss anything. You have anxiety hun. It causes annoying and sometimes scary symptoms. I often feel a lump in throat feeling, and it eases when I calm myself down. Please work on your anxiety and get yourself some professional help ie: therapy. Anytime self harm thoughts are involved, it is better to get help asap than let those thoughts linger. You are fine, you will be fine.  At 19 you should be out having a good time and studying, not worried about something sinister :)

[sassparella]

It could very well be anxiety there's something called globus hystericus which is a lump felt in the throat due to anxiety and it started a couple of days after you broke up with your girlfriend which could also be a trigger for anxiety. When I was young I had trouble swallowing, I used to feel like there was a lump in my throat and I was choking on food I ate. It was all anxiety and cleared up after a while.

However, I can't diagnose you and it may be that the cereal bar scratched your throat or something. Can you maybe go back to the ENT and get the endoscopy done? That should show once and for all if there's anything there. I went to an ENT a while ago and had one, it's unpleasant but doesn't hurt at all, it actually tickled a bit when he put it up my nose lol.

[JOKOPOWER]

So when they checked with the CT scan, they could prove it wasnt a tumor or anything serious? and that would also be able to find if there was anything stuck such as food? I want to see another doctor, but ive already been to 6, I cant really afford another one..

[floridaguy65]

I want to see another doctor, but ive already been to 6, I cant really afford another one..

Why would a 7th Doc give you the reassurances you are seeking that the other 6 could not? The answer is, overwhelmingly, the 7th Doc would not be able to provide you the comfort you want. This is because he is a Med Doc and he it trained to find some type of organic, physiological root cause behind your struggles. There is nothing serious, as has been shown by your med testing and Doc visits, to date. Don't fret over this...nearly every single person here on the HA section of The AZ has gone through this. We seek out medical intervention because we feel "off" and are having weird symptoms and niggling aches and pains, etc. We have trouble accepting that there isn't a sinister something lurking around in our body. We have trouble accepting that our anxious minds and thinking patterns can lead us down this road, as it feels SO REAL. Of course, we are not making this stuff up....we sure can feel crappy (and scared). There is little that is out of bounds, so to speak, when dealing with anxiety / health anxiety when it comes to physical manifestations and intrusive thoughts. I am no longer surprised by what anxiety can do (I used to deny a lot of it, though). Acceptance is typically very crucial in our seeking out a healing path.

What's going on in your anxiety help? Ever seen a mental health professional?

Ever had any diagnosed physical health issues?

There is always help and hope:)

Peace and Feel Well:)

[trainwreck]

So when they checked with the CT scan, they could prove it wasnt a tumor or anything serious? and that would also be able to find if there was anything stuck such as food? I want to see another doctor, but ive already been to 6, I cant really afford another one..

Someone jump in here if I am wrong, but I can find no instance of a ct scan missing something like a mass in your throat. 
Again, I will go back to the kidney stone I had.  They were able to tell me exactly where the stone was in my body, if it was causing a blockage and how big it was.  When it passed, it was no more than a large grain of sand. 

I have posted this before, but swallowing is like breathing.  It is easy until you become aware of it.  I constantly get pills stuck in my throat because I hate swallowing them.  Mostly I chew them.  But I can swallow fine.  It is just when I am trying to swallow a pill, I am THINKING about it. 

You need to stop going to doctors for this. They will gladly give you as mant CT scans as you want.  But if the 1st one didnt find anything, the next 6 aren't going to. 

So, that leaves you with an anxiety issue.  Be as aggressive in getting treatment for that as you have been with your throat and you will be fine!

[oceanlover]

I'm so sorry you are dealing with this! I am sure a ct scan would have picked up something if anything was there. I have had anxiety about throat issues. As long as I thought about it, I felt a lump in my throat. Find some ways to distract your thinking. Get into a good book, hang out with friends, go for a run...try to get your mind off of it. Also, try some tums. When I get acid reflux it often feels like a lump in my throat. Acid reflux can be triggered by stress...like breaking up with your girlfriend. Feel better and know you are not alone! Prayers for you!

[WyattsMomma]

Yes  a ct scan is a very indepth and precise test. If anything was there, it would have shown up. NOW, you just have to believe it :) Nothing is stuck there, it is anxiety.

[JOKOPOWER]

i really appreciate all the replies, i hope its just stress, everything i eat feels like it gets stuck, and then i gag, but i think about it non stop when i eat, and i fear that may be what causes the trouble, also i have been burping alot when i do eat, and getting stomach aches...it constantly feels like there is something i just cant cough up in my throat..