So I have anxiety and pure O, where I'll have thoughts of harming and existential ones.
I've been good for about a month or so, if I've started feeling anxious I've been able to get it under control, no obsessive thoughts, it's been nice.
But yesterday I was sitting with my friend watching TV and I suddenly felt anxious with the thought "what if I just hit her?" and as always happens, I felt this urge and then felt guilty and awful for thinking that which just made me think of it more..you know how it goes!
Today I'm just feeling very blah and anxious, thing is I'm not sure why it's suddenly started back up, if anything I've been taking better care of myself the past few days, I've started really eating better (fish, chicken, fruit and veg) and going to the gym regularly for the past 3 days,I did have a coffee yesterday which I don't usually do as caffine really gets me jittery, and my time of the month is just ending (sorry if that's tmi!)
I'm hoping this will pass as I keep working at taking better care of myself, past couple weeks before I wasn't really exercising and eating more chocolates but felt okay in my head, do you think I'm reacting to doing the more healthy stuff? oh I don't know, I'm babbling now, just wondered what folks here thought...
Hate feeling like this...