Hi all I pray you are well
I have been battling with the way I feel for around 6 monthes now, and it has slowly got worse. I read online about panic attacks and they don't quite sound what I feel like (sudden chest pains etc) but I shall post here and see if anyone has any insight
I have obsessive thoughts of death. I can't shift this feeling in my head that I'll have a heart attack or heart failure. It's never really anything else, mainly heart related. I don't have a reason for feeling like this, no chest pains or anything.
During the day time when I'm with others, the thought will come to my mind 'what If I die?' 'what if I have a heart attack right now?', then the thought goes away after some effort. Maybe because I'm busy and don't have chance to dwell on it.
At night, this is when it all starts. when I get into bed the thought comes again, but because it's quiet and I'm alone, I can't shift the thought.
Then I start to panic, deep breathing, crying, shaking, and a 'butterfly' feeling in my chest like nervousness (palpitations?), that's the worst part of it.
I can feel like this for hours on end. Last night was until 4am. And I am still feeling the 'butterflys' in chest now the next afternoon and feel I keep taking deeper breaths still, I'm curled up in a ball
I often have this nervous feeling, and lately started getting pins and needles and a numb feeling in my left hand (all in my mind???!!)
I am feeling more stressed in my life at the moment, and I suffer with a underactive thyroid so not sure if this is playing a role.
2 nights ago I feel I had a panic attack, I felt dizzy and hot, faint, heart was pounding, left arm tingly and numb and kept coming in waves for around 2 hours.
Does anyone else feel this way