Although I am new to these boards, I am not new to Health Anxiety. I had my first major bought of HA in 2004 (March-August). It all started with an obsession over a swollen lymph node on the back of my neck. I had the swollen node for years but for some reason in 2004 I couldn't get over the node being related to Lymphoma. After convincing my doctor to have the node removed - surprise, I found out that it was a normal reactive node. Just like my doctor thought it would be. After I got over the lymphoma scare, I went on to fears about various other cancers including stomach cancer and brain cancer. During this time I did a few sessions of CBT and choose not to take meds.
After years of being relatively HA free, I had a relapse in early 2008 when I was under a time of great stress. During this time I woke up one night with a burning pain in my arm. This progressed to the numbness, tingling, and twitches that oh so often accompany anxiety. After a negative EMG and numerous appointments with a Neurologist, I realized that I did not have MS or ALS. This time the HA only lasted for a month or so.
Since then I've been HA free again. I got pregnant with my daughter in 2009 and had a worry free pregnancy! Life was great. After having my daughter I dealt with some PPD and was put on a low dose (25mg's) of Zoloft. This helped keep my anxiety at bay for years. Until now.
In the middle of January I started getting bad gas pains under my ribcage. These pains coincided with a major flair up of by IBS. Although my rational mind knew the pains were probably related to the IBS, my irrational HA mind came out of nowhere and started worrying about various abdominal cancers. After a clear x-ray, ultrasound and CT scan of the abdomen and pelvis, I was able to get over my fears of pancreatic cancer, liver cancer, etc. Instead of moving on with my life, I went onto worrying about other things. I started getting the burning pain and numbness in my right arm again. The same feeling that I had in 2008 when I was stressed and had a pinched nerve. This time I went to Dr. Google and found out about a rare lung tumor that sometimes mirrors musketalskeletal pains (don't look it up!). I sent myself into a tizzy! Went to the ER 4 times. Had 3 clean chest X-rays. This didn't bring me any solace because I read on Dr. Google that xrays sometimes miss tumors in this area of the lungs. Now I have strangely moved on from the lung cancer worries and am convinced that a mole in my lower back has changed and I now have metastasized melanoma in my body from the mole.
My ailments: aches and pains all over, random shooting pains, glands feel swollen (doc says they are not), spacey feeling in my head, numbness and tingling all over body, no appetite (i've lost 22 pounds in the last month and a half but i am dieting and overweight), fatigued, dry eyes, floaters, ibs acting up,
My background: 33, female, never smoked, occasional glass of wine, taken off Zoloft 2 weeks ago and put on Cymbalta - due to crazy side effects doctor took me off Cymbalta yesterday - managing with Xanax as needed for now.
Doctor thinks that I have fibromyalgia and anxiety causing all this. How does he know I have fibro and not cancer?!
Why do I feel like this even when I don't feel anxious if this is just anxiety?
Could my symptoms be anxiety related?
I need rational minds because I wake up everyday thinking that I am dying. It's freaking me out!