I think most of us with HA have some fear of death in the sense that we are afraid that every disease we think we have is going to kill us. If we werent afraid of dying, would these pretend diseases we have really bother us? When i turned fifty a couple of years ago I started focusing on the death thing a lot. Not just the fear that my disease of the day would kill me, but the fact that my life was more than half over...unless I live to be a hundred, of course. What helps me is the fact that i don't believe this is all there is...that we continue to exist after this life. Then, life got crazy busy for me and i really haven't had time to torture myself with the negative thoughts.
Now, about what is going on with you, sass. When we go to the doctor over and over again with "symptoms," at some point they will feel the only thing left to do is start testing. If you just accepted the sweating at night as a non issue and hadn't pursued it with the doctor, he wouldn't be making an issue of it. Your fear that the sweating is being caused by cancer is what sends you running back to the doctor. Then the longer period has confirmed your suspicions. It must be cancer. There is no other explanation, right? Add to that, a gyne who dismisses menopause and orders other tests...and now you are on a downward spiral. It all started with the sweating. It's no different than when one of us gets stomach pains...then gas...then loose stools...then blood...we go to the doctor over and over again because anxiety cannot be causing these problems...we finally get the colonoscopy and there is nothing wrong. Had we addressed the anxiety at the stomach pain stage, it may not have gone any further.
If you can truly say that these night sweats are soaking your pajamas and literally leaving you in a puddle of sweat, then I think most of us would want to confirm the cause. But, if you are waking up damp, with sweat in the creases of your body and on your chest and forehead...not so sinister. I hope that once your tests are done, you will be able to put all of this behind you. I also hope that at some point you will find a gyne who is more knowledgeable when it comes to the aging female body.