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Offline LO87

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Re: Fear of my own existence/own being.
« Reply #30 on: June 08, 2014, 05:57:23 AM »
I'm not an expert, but I'm pretty sure having existential thoughts about your own existence isn't the same as depersonalisation. The latter is a protective mechanism that comes from extreme trauma or anxiety (like in a panic attack) where you physically don't feel attached to your own body or things seem unreal/like you're living in a movie. It's a very physical, disorienting state. Everyone alive gets existential thoughts at some point. Anxious people just dwell on them more because we are hypervigilant (too aware of our own surroundings and selves). I'm 99.9% sure that that is NOT the same thing as depersonalisation.
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Re: Fear of my own existence/own being.
« Reply #31 on: June 08, 2014, 10:37:35 AM »
Yeah, I  would say so that they are different too. The symptoms for depersonalization/derealization sound similar to being obsessive over existential thoughts, but they are not the same. I know some people have existential thoughts stemming from dp/dr, so maybe that's the confusion. I just have the thoughts and have never really experienced dp/dr.
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Offline MeridianAD

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Re: Fear of my own existence/own being.
« Reply #32 on: September 02, 2014, 06:16:35 AM »
I know that this is a really old post.. But how are you guys doing with this? I've been struggling with these thoughts for a few months and they're crippling. Any coping strategies?

Well actually, things have gotten a little better.

To whoever said it's not the same thing as depersonalization... the thoughts about existence themselves aren't the same thing, but for me at least I definitely get depersonalization, often at the same time. It will go something like "Hmm, why am I myself? Why am I living in this world?" And then after obsessing over those questions for a few minutes, I'll start to feel detached from my body, start to feel like I'm not in control of my body. I feel very dreamy and sort of "floaty" like my soul could just float away from my body at any moment and there is nothing holding me in this world. It feels kind of like gravity just stopped working, only instead of gravity pulling my body to earth, it was keeping my consciousness linked with my body.

I still have anxiety sometimes, and recently (last month) I've had more panic attacks again. I've had these feelings, that I've come to know are depersonalization and derealization, occasionally, but not as much as when I posted before (early 2013).

One of the best coping strategies for me was and still is to just change activities, especially to something where you were going outside and hanging out with someone and doing something new. Try to do something that is thought provoking and gives you some new things to think about.

If that doesn't appeal, some routine things can help as well... moderate exercise (but not too much), meditation, making lists of things to do, cleaning your room, cooking your own healthy food, and just general things to remember to take care of your physical health. I think these things work by reducing anxiety levels overall and increasing energy levels. If you start to feel overwhelmed, take a break from whatever you're doing, check your list of things you need to do, and pick something else. Or just go outside for a walk.

Finally, try to remember that these feelings are -just- caused by anxiety. They aren't philosophical revelations and you aren't any closer to true reality or anything. Plenty of other people can think about life and the universe and "Isn't it weird that we're all just animals sitting on a planet in *****?" without freaking out at all. It only freaks us out because we already have too much unconscious anxiety built up already and this is how it manifests itself.
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Re: Fear of my own existence/own being.
« Reply #33 on: March 23, 2015, 12:01:49 AM »
Just want to say that this thread came up on google and probably saved my life in a way and is the reason i signed up. anxiety is a tricky guy eh, much love and sorry for posting on such an old thread. :angel-smiley-006: :angel-smiley-006: :angel-smiley-006:
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Re: Fear of my own existence/own being.
« Reply #34 on: March 23, 2015, 05:15:25 PM »
I will keep this brief because I have suffered the exact same problem for 8 months and have recently come out of it... and I don't want to relapse.

I have suffered the same exact thing that you have been suffering.

I hit rock bottom.

I got better without medication or therapy using ONE simple technique. I surrounded myself with friends and activities, and I distracted myself from these thoughts and over a period of 3 months... I improved drastically to the point where I can call myself "normal" again.

No matter how insane you feel, the bottom line is, ALL THIS IS IS EXTREME ANXIETY AS A RESULT OF EXISTENTIAL THOUGHTS, AND ANXIETY AS A RESULT OF THE ANXIETY FROM THE EXISTENTIAL THOUGHTS. IT IS A LOOP... A TERRIBLE HELLISH LOOP... BUT IT IS JUST ANXIETY. Once you cut out the thoughts, you cut out the anxiety, and you begin to recover.


You are NOT ALONE, and you WILL NOT FEEL THIS WAY FOREVER.
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Re: Fear of my own existence/own being.
« Reply #35 on: March 23, 2015, 05:20:23 PM »
If you read my old posts.. you'll see how bad I was. But I BEAT IT by myself and you can too. The anniversary of my 8-month anxiety hell is coming up on March 28, and a year later, I am doing fine and I am a stronger person because of it.

These things do not last forever, and you WILL recover, I swear.
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« Reply #36 on: April 10, 2015, 05:39:17 PM »
hi everybody. I'm a 20 years old italian guy, great to see not to be the only one with this thoughts. I've always found very strange and creepy to be "myself" and only "myself" and sometimes I thought that all the reality was created by myself and I felt so lonely. I've just passed a week of hell, and I've understood what real anxiety is, obsessive thinking, believe of going mad, and of course existential questions that scared me a lot, and passing all the day on the net searching for my symptoms. Well I have to say that this helped me a lot. I understood that all this negative thinking were a way of my mind to protect me from the troubles of real life, it's more simple to think that a problem doesn't exists or that you're going mad instead of facing the problem with action in real life. I think it's all about points of view, If you're not happy about yourself, you will go anxious, having fear of your own existence, of the universe (that's what i felt last week) and you won't think about your real life and your real problems; then if you are  happy about yourself, you will be happy of your own existence, it will be amazing to be the only "you" in the world, and all the existential question will be the wonder of life, not some scary things. I have to thank that anxiety attack cause it made me realize that I'm not happy of what I am and that I have to change, now, and I have to face all the changes that life is giving me. Well, writing it's a simple thing, but of course I'm fighting every day trying to change...in fact I'm still searching on the net sometimes looking for someone with my thoughts...and I've found this site, good not to be alone  :happy0151:
p.s. sorry for my poor english...
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Re: Fear of my own existence/own being.
« Reply #37 on: May 29, 2015, 01:06:52 AM »
I am also dealing with this horribly. Reality itself just freaks me out. How we are everything instead of nothing... Just being in reality itself is uncomfortable. I notice everything, how we are all atoms and molecules. I honestly don't know how to come out of this.
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