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Re: Fear of my own existence/own being.
« Reply #20 on: September 30, 2013, 02:58:50 PM »
Turbomonkey, I've gone through this once before. I got better. Life was beautiful and happy again ;).
These are just anxious feelings. Feelings that made some philosophers write their best work, for one.
I was ok for over 10 years but fell into some of the old thought and behavior patterns again.
I'm pretty sure we'll be right back on track soon.

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Re: Fear of my own existence/own being.
« Reply #21 on: September 30, 2013, 03:59:35 PM »
Turbomonkey, I've gone through this once before. I got better. Life was beautiful and happy again ;).
These are just anxious feelings. Feelings that made some philosophers write their best work, for one.
I was ok for over 10 years but fell into some of the old thought and behavior patterns again.
I'm pretty sure we'll be right back on track soon.

Take care!

I am glad to hear you achieved normalcy for a decade. That is reassuring. Like I told my mum shortly after this occurred, its like sometimes I feel almost normal and I am literally just keeping myself in this mentality and suffering, yet I can not seem to stop it.

Which book did you purchase btw? I actually got a book myself, titled "at last a life" written by a man from the UK. Unfortunately, shame on me, I have only dove in probably10 pages thus far despite having had possession of the book for a few weeks.  :/
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Re: Fear of my own existence/own being.
« Reply #22 on: October 09, 2013, 02:28:27 PM »
It's a book called Overcoming depersonalization & feelings of unreality (A self-help guide using CBT). I do admit I've been putting it off recently as my depersonalization has been pretty much absent for several weeks (yay), but will bite into this apple ASAP.

Sometimes 'normal' will turn into most (if not all) times 'normal' for u too  :winking0008:. I put 'normal' in quotes as I find this word quite funny. What IS normal? And WHO sets the norms?

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« Reply #23 on: October 09, 2013, 03:13:52 PM »
Same here dude. Horrible, horrible feelings. Sleep and distraction works for me. Hope ye get a grip on it soon. I know exactly how ye feel..

Best of luck man. Best advice I can give ye is to research and understand what s happening to you.

YOU'RE NOT ALONE !!!!
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« Reply #24 on: October 09, 2013, 03:31:32 PM »
Distraction helps sometimes.I was taking 5htp and some herb and doing my normal daily routine and it did help I was still stuck with this awareness of existence but the panic attaks stopped,till 3 days ago,all over again,back to square one.Feel very very weird and scared of my own existence and life. I am not sure it's depersonalization though. I suffered from DP last year it was a different feeling-unreal feeling and detachment,nothing like that.This one is worse but it's still anxiety.
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« Reply #25 on: June 01, 2014, 05:05:30 PM »
I know that this is a really old post.. But how are you guys doing with this? I've been struggling with these thoughts for a few months and they're crippling. Any coping strategies?
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« Reply #26 on: June 01, 2014, 07:31:53 PM »
I can relate to much of what you're dealing with. It's just a neurotic thought that's caught hold of you and fuels your fear.

It seems you get over one of these neurotic thoughts/feelings, then a new one pops up, but that's kind of what keeps the anxiety going.. you have the thoughts because you're anxious.. It's not really the thoughts scaring you, it's that you're anxious about something else in your life so the thoughts like what you're describing are getting to you.

What on a bigger scale in life is bothering you right now? Fear of life/existence can come down to a general feeling of hopelessness and confusion of the future. You may be lost on what to do with your life, you may no know what kind of career path you wanna take, you may be struggling to make ends meet, you may be heartbroken after a breakup, the root of the anxiety can be tied to many things.

Having struggled with this horrible, ***** problem for about 4 years now, I can tell you some coping strategies I've acquired.. each panic attack you're in feels it will last forever, that's just how they go.

Crying after the attack helps immensely, it releases those nasty stress hormones, tears rid your body of those toxins, in fact, it's kind of necessary to cry after an attack if you can.

Distract yourself with a hobby, just do something, even if you don't feel like it.

Get some antidepressant to help control some anxiety symptoms, it will make a difference.

I'm still struggling with this myself, but there are good days and bad days, you just have to work through it.
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« Reply #27 on: June 01, 2014, 07:59:33 PM »
Thank you for this thread! I thought I was the only one with this issue. It happened to me about 5 years ago. I was scared of existing and couldn't think about anything else. Then I got help and went on antidepressants. That helped, but I think what got me out of it was challenging these thoughts. Last month, these thoughts came back. It was so disappointing because I thought I was done with it. But, I am going through a transition period in my life, so I think that may have triggered it.  But it feels so much better to know that I am not alone in this. I'm glad I found this website.
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« Reply #28 on: June 01, 2014, 10:27:39 PM »
Thank you for this thread! I thought I was the only one with this issue. It happened to me about 5 years ago. I was scared of existing and couldn't think about anything else. Then I got help and went on antidepressants. That helped, but I think what got me out of it was challenging these thoughts. Last month, these thoughts came back. It was so disappointing because I thought I was done with it. But, I am going through a transition period in my life, so I think that may have triggered it.  But it feels so much better to know that I am not alone in this. I'm glad I found this website.


Same here. I have always had anxiety.. And I would seem to have different episodes. When I was 5-6 years old, I was peteified of throwing up... And would roll around on the floor in a hysterical blind panic unless my parents ASSURED me that I wouldn't. When I was 10-12 I had a constant dread of life itself, much like this thread. But the thoughts weren't there, just the dread feeling. Fast foreword another 3 years, and here I am with the same dread feeling, but with crippling thoughts to go along with it. It's really disheartening to know that you thought you controlled the anxiety... But it just comes back. The BRIGHT side is, I know that I will come out of this phase, but unfortunately I may move onto the next one in a few years. The anxiety hasn't affected my schoolwork... And I guess I have quite a few friends. Never gotten into any fights or major conflict. I guess it makes me a stronger person in the end.

P.S: The thing I HATE, is that at night, I feel fine, and the thoughts don't bother me. However, no matter how fine I feel at night, no matter how okay I am with the questions, and no matter how much I tell myself that "I will feel okay tomorrow. I just need to be strong!" I still end up waking up the next morning with level 10 anxiety, and the thoughts scare the hell out of me all day long until nighttime when I'm finally at peace with them... Only to begin the cycle again the next day. Maybe I need to be stronger.
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Re: Fear of my own existence/own being.
« Reply #29 on: June 03, 2014, 03:30:52 PM »
Further evidence to back up the fact that it is most likely out thoughts:

Today in school I went through the whole day and I didn't obsess over life's meaning, why we are here, etc. not at all. And that's fantastic considering that for a week straight I was at rock bottom, afraid of life itself, depressed, obsessing over this, etc. as soon as I got home however the thoughts came back and I spent a few minutes obsessing... But preoccupying myself is the 100% cure. I just hope I can do this on my own because summer vacation is coming in three weeks and there will be nothing to distract me.
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