Hi my name is Kristie and I'm at my end I don't know what else to do!! The er has denied seeing me anymore and my medical bills are going up!! I'm always in pain with this axitenty !! I was diagnosed with the disorder when I was 16 and I'm 26 now. It never use to be this bad but the past 2 months I can't get any relief and no matter how many times the er tells me im not going to die I still don't believe them.. I have bags under my eyes from the pain and fear of not waking up! My chest is always tights try and take extra breathes just to make sure I'm still alive .. My arms go num sweat just runs all over me my heart is racing it gets up to a 140 beats a min and most know that when u have this disorder when ur chest gets tight and heart starts racing there is no turning back and it's a scary ride until u get relief!! I have tried Meds but they don't work or just Make you not human anymore bc u are like a zombie.. There are so many symptoms I feel at one time and I fear I'm dying !! No body gets it they tell me pull ur self together u got to be strong !! Do they think if I could I would I don't want to leave like this !! It has gotten so bad I fear even leaving my house !! When I go to Walmart I have to know how many bathrooms there are where They are and before I start shopping I go around counting exit signs I always have to be by an exit and when I'm not I will tear everything down trying to get ti one !! I can't deal with this I feel like it controls my life and I'm going crazy!! My family and friends. Don't suport me so I don't k ow what to do please help!! I pray every night just for a peak of relief!