I am not sure what to do with myself right now... I have had anxiety problems since I was very young.. It 'runs' in the family. When the anxiety hit really bad I was about 19. I am 23 now.. It hit me good for about 6 months, I couldn't do much in that time... Every day was a huge struggle, I would just get panic attacks all the time out of the blue and I would just feel generally crappy all day... My anxiety attacks generally inlude shortness of breath, rapid heart rate, and getting really nauseous.. Puts me stomache in knots, some days when my anxiety is bad, my stomache just feels sensitive all day..
I will make a long story short but pretty much in that time, I tried a few SSRI's. I ended up using zoloft since last year when I finally stopped taking it.. I did not like the side effects, nor did I want to be dependent on a med for the rest of my life... I do take xanax from time to time when ever I really need it..
So generally since then I have been good.. Slight bouts of anxiety and such but nothing I could not handle. Well for the last few weeks I have had really bad anxiety. I have a little phobia about getting a certain type of sick... Think stomache bugs'.. I always remember, even since I was small, that it was terrible and I just hated it. It freaked me out.
Ever since I heard some news articles pertaining to this it has just put my anxiety levels through the roof.. I have just felt down in the dumps since then.. Every day I just dont feel well, have the brain fog, tired, etc etc.. My emotions run wild too, I get this overwhelming feeling like I want to cry a lot.. Random things will just set me off, its weird and I have not experience this too much before..
It is terrible though, I can say I had a great get away weekend, had a lot of fun and was happy. Did not think about my anxiety or have any problems.. I thought I was feeling better and whoosh. As I am driving into town bam it hits me! Just that dreadful gloomy feeling... I dont get it, had such a great weekend and back to this??? Not sure what else to do other than ride it out.