Finally broke down and seeked help.

[GabbyMomof3]

So, after thinking I could do this on my own and failing, I ended up going to a free mental health clinic. Being that I always grew up with insurance and having private doctors, I had not so good feelings about free health clinics being I live in Los Angeles. I was wrong. This place was so helpful. The staff was amazing, supportive, and real nice, and the patients weren't what I expected. I actually started up a conversation with another lady there with her mom because she too suffers from anxiety and depression. I started a conversation!!! The wait was long, but worth it. We woke up at 5 a.m. to be there when they opened at 6:30, we were second in line and ended up getting out at 11:30. Hubby wasn't too happy because he works later on today, but it was free, so I asked him to please not complain. It's sad because it's his birthday today and he had to take me, but I'll make it up to him.

So, I feel a little more at ease. I was a bit upset that they couldn't prescribe me any benzos, they help for a quick fix, but didn't because of their habit forming. So I was put on 20mg Celexa, 10mg for the first week, and 25mg Hydroxine for a month to "get the edge off" while the Celexa kicks in, 3 - 4 times a day. I was also referred to a low-cost therapist, but that'll take about a month or more for my appointment.

In the meanwhile, I'm going to start attending church again. It's been far too long since I've gone, and I'm sure my mom and dad, rest their souls, are not happy with that. I'm also going to seek help from a priest. At this point, I'll see and do anything within my reach for relief from this mental disorder.

I'm hopeful this is the beginning to relief and recovery.

[kconnors]

Hi,

Well done . . . but, rather than feeling that you "broke down," consider seeing this as a "step up" . . . .just in this one time you had so many accomplishments and yes, make sure hubby knows he is appreciated . . . .this will help him because he will have a much happier partner . . . I hear the positive and the hope in your posting and I am so pleased that you are seeing this as the beginning to relief and recovery . . . please keep in touch and, again, super job . . .take care, kc

[GabbyMomof3]

Thanks, KC

Yea, I think a "step up" does make better it better. I'm hopeful, that I can say. I have to think positive or else I'll drive myself crazy. I know it'll take a while for me to see results, so I'm expecting the worst for these few weeks to come, but am hopeful that when the anti-depressant finally kicks in, I'll be better. Plus, I look forward to finally seeing a therapist. At this point, I'm willing to stick my hands into fire for the solution. :)

[cutecat25]

Well Done Gabby!
What a great positive to come out of your situation!
It's great that the mental health clinic were helpful and friendly :)
I wish you the best of luck with your upcoming appotinments and medication :)
Take care!

[msgb98]

The fact that you sought out help is the step that you needed to take at that moment. You are helping yourself to feel better or get on the road to a better you. There is no shame in it. I had a time about a year and a half ago where I needed help and I did not know where to turn . I found someone to talk to and I also started doing acupuncture. It has helped me in so many ways.
I hope that you feel good about seeking out someone.
A strong person finds help.