This is probably going to get long.. so sorry in advance!
Here it goes..
In August of 2011, my boyfriend and I (now my fiance) moved away from everything we have ever known from Chicago to Southern California. He graduated from college in May of 2011, and was able to find a job with an Animation studio a few months after. I am 26, and was a little late on getting on board with college. But I finally started going to a community college back in Chicago and was doing really well. When I found out that we were moving, I also found out that I could finish my degree online with my school (which I have done & can say I have finally earned my Associates!) Anyways, when we were moving we were super stoked. Neither of us had been to California, and we were both excited to start our lives together. The only problem was that we had no family and no friends out here. Everyone we knew and loved lived in or close to Chicago. But we figured we'd get over it. Things were good for a while, but then it just seems like it all went downhill. First, I can't transfer 85% of my credits to a California school because they are "out of state credits". So basically, if I want to go to school out here, I have to start all over and kiss my credits from home that I worked so hard for goodbye and just sit on the $13,000 I have in loans because of them. Next, my fiances company is a joke. He still isn't doing what he wants and is not particularly happy with that. &the whole reason we moved here was for his work, so that's aggravating. Next, we are getting married this October back home, and haven't really been able to plan much of it because we are just relying on our parents to get most of it figured out (decorations mainly). Which I thought would be good- no stress for us. But boy was I wrong. It's my only wedding and I feel like I'm not even a part of it. And we can't afford to fly home, so that's out. Next, the cost of living is INSANE. People say "you make more, so it evens out." Wrong. We are barely surviving out here and can pretty much jiust scrape by with bills each month. I got a job as a nanny which I've done many times before, but am getting screwed so much. They cut my pay by $600 a month because they "couldn't afford it." But then still have gardeners, house cleaners, and go out shopping like crazy. They treat me like complete .... and it's beyond aggravating. I go to work everyday and literally hate my job. They are underpaying me by about $8 an hour, but I really can't do anything about it. It took me almost 6 months to find this job because they are so hard to find out here, so it's not like I can quit and go elsewhere. I'm still looking, but am getting unhopeful at this point. But they are taking advantage of me and I can't do a thing about it. And last, I miss my family dearly. My grandfather is starting to get ill, and I really just want to move back home and be done with all of this. We are stuck on a lease until September, but my fiance said he will look for jobs back home. The reason we had to move out here is because 99% of his industry is out in California. But if we moved back home... I'd be able to finish school, I'd be a much happier person. But I feel awful pulling him away from the place where his work is just for my happiness and school. I just feel like we tried it, and it's not working out here. Life is too short, and I feel like I am completely wasting my life living in a place that I hate, working for people who treat me like garbage, and missing valuable time I could be spending with my family. Not to mention, finishing my degree is something that has always been important to me, and my fiance knows that. I'm sorry for this whole rant. I'm just really overwhelmed with sadness and just want to go home.