You must be really frustrated by the whole process especially now being postponed to March when you were expecting to be seen in January . . . .was any reason given? I want to let you know though that this situation is not of your doing . .. . none of us ask for anxiety; none of us enjoy it . . . .so, you have not let yourself down . . . I hope that you contacted your GP immediately and told him/her what happened and expressed quite directly the impact that this has had on you and that you are now in desperation mode . . . .sometimes our strengths develop from being our own advocates in a proactive fashion . . . . so, yes, be frustrated with the system and your GP but not with yourself . . . .you have no control over either the disease or the events . . .
Now, your psychological well being depends on your physical . . . so you have to eat and sleep . . . unless you decide to consume 15,000 calories a day of junk food, you will not be putting on weight . . . .without food, your physical brain's chemistry will get messed up and that only allows anxiety brain a wider playing field . . .and you need to be drinking non-caffeinated beverages . . . dehydration is one of the worse things for you . . .. same thing goes with sleep . . . you can do something about the food and your GP can do something about the sleep . . . .also, your GP should be able to fast track you even if it is just for transitional help . . . otherwise you will end up in the emergency ward of the hospital with physical and anxiety issues . . . and, quite frankly, if that is what you have to do, then do it . . . .
Please do not apologize . . . you are not sounding mellow dramatic . . . these are real issues with a real impact on you . . . .I am sorry that I cannot provide you with concrete solutions but please come back here and let us know what you are doing . . . in the meantime . . . contact your GP, contact your mental health unit, contact any crisis helpline you can find, and enlist your strength in advocacy on getting the help you need and you deserve and recognize that the situation is not of your making . . .take care, kc