What I mean is like "slow" or unable to think as fast as before. Let me give you some examples.
First of all, ever since I came out of my severe GAD episode last week, my GAD has gone down but my social anxiety has gone way up.
I feel like my GAD made me stupid. For starters, I'm having trouble remembering right now what I wanted to write on here and I keep staring blankly at the screen. My memory sucks lately. I can barely remember the past two weeks, but also something else alarmed me: For some reason I was trying to remember how many classes I took last semester, which was really only a month ago. I could only remember two classes, but I felt like I had taken at least three classes. It literally took me a day and a lot of heavy thinking to remember that I took four classes and what classes they were. WTH?! It was only a month ago, how could I not remember that??? I've always had an excellent memory, so this is really weird.
While I'm doing things; getting dressed or taking care of the dogs or whatever, I will constantly pause and stare at something for a long time. It's like I have to completely stop what I'm doing in order to think about something. Which is what I just did a second ago: I stopped typing, stared off into spaced, and tried to collect my thoughts trying to remember what I was going to write.
Finally, I have trouble using my brain in social situations, even with people I know. When I saw my doctor on Monday (actually she is a nurse practitioner, but she acts as my doctor), she was talking to me and it was like I couldn't process what she was saying. As a result, I talked really slow and couldn't say very much. I've never been much of a talker, but I do typically talk a lot to people I know...and I've known my nurse practitioner for four years. A lot of times I would just stare at her when she said something to me. This is part of why my social anxiety has been so high; I can't process and react to things as well as before and it makes me self-conscious. As a result, I just talk really slow so that I can think while I'm talking. Yesterday I had to stand up in front of my class and read something. I was really scared so I read it REALLY SLOWLY. I had to keep pausing to read it before I actually said it out loud.
I just don't feel like myself lately; I've changed.
This was difficult for me to write; trying to explain something is really hard for me right now. I'm at a loss. Any thoughts?