So back in December I started feeling pressure around my head, mostly my forehead. I had this pretty much everyday at some point, and would even sometimes wake up in the morning still feeling it. During this time I'd also had two panic attacks.
Come January the pressure was still there. One night I was having a hard time sleeping, and from what I remember I moved to one side, and then it felt as though I'd had an electric shock. I think my legs were moving, and my brain felt like it was being electrocuted or something. It's all very hard to describe. During this seizure - or whatever it was - I remember trying to call out to my flatmates. This lasted for maybe fifteen seconds. It was very dreamlike. Sometime after I got up and started worrying, wondering what had just happened. I started searching online of course, and read posts on epilepsy forums from people who have had very similar dream-like, confusing and conscious seizures that didn't last very long.
I went to a doctor soon after, described my symptoms and experience, and then focused mainly on my previous health concerns. I wish I hadn't. I feel like when I'm talking to a doctor I'm subconsciously trying to convince them that I'm fine, so I'll talk about my anxiety a lot. She said the pressure sounded like tension headaches, and that she didn't think I'd had a seizure because people are unconscious when they have them - this goes against what handfuls of people WITH epilepsy have said? I've read reliable online material on seizures that have all recognised that conscious seizures do exist. Regardless to say I didn't feel any better: if not I probably felt worse. She asked me if I had bitten my tongue, if I had tingling legs or arms, and if my vision was any worse. At the time the answer to all of these questions were no, but since then I have been experiencing tingling, and at night I focus on my vision a lot. Sometimes I can see my pulse in my eyes - it's hard to explain. I get floaters, too, and in a dark room I get flashes of white at times, and can see very odd moving swirly shapes.
I could attribute all of this to exam stress as my anxiety does tend to be most violent during these periods, but at this point I should say that I had taken ecstasy twice in December. I know drugs are no good, especially paired with anxiety, and I'm definitely dealing with the consequences now. I told the doctor this, too, and she said she didn't think it would have caused any brain damage. Hm.
I'm not really sure what kind of responses I expect from this, I haven't really asked any questions. I just needed to let it all out because it's driving me mad. I'm too scared to sleep. I feel so alone: my flatmates have no sympathy, they actually think I'm attention seeking. They don't see a problem and just tell me to 'deal with it'.
Like always I'm hoping it's nothing, but my exams have finished now and I'm still feeling pressure. The doctor told me to come back to her if it persisted and she'd give me something for it. My mother was epileptic which heightens my worry somewhat, although I was tested for it when I was younger and was found not to have it.