I have to have a physical and a TB test done for a job and had that done today. My last one was done in dec. 2010 unless you count the emergency room blood work in march 2012. And now for the hard part... Waiting! Ugh..
She also wanted to give me a dtap but I am terrified of vaccines. I will be a nurse soon and she's like you can't work in a hospital without one. Maybe when the bridge comes ill get one but not today. I'm worried I will be one of those rare cases that gets lymphoma or leukemia from a vaccine. I'm already freaking out because I don't have a record of my third hepatitis shot when I was a child and if I can't find a record of it I will have to get it again. Apparently doctors offices will throw out records over 10 years old :/
I also asked to her about my anxiety and she is continuing my prescription for buspar but for panic attacks suggested propranolol. Has anyone ever heard or taken this? It sounds like its for heart attacks.... I'm scared to take a new med but she prescribed it as needed. Just wondering if anyone has any experience.
She also asked me why I am going to be a nurse or how that is possible if I have health anxiety. I said I am not the type who sees a patient and thinks I have that disease. I am not the type to go out and get medical tests (in fact I never do) I do not run to the ER like a typical hypo. I just have a general terrified feeling of the future in getting cancer or some horrible disease someday. And I believe it is because I watched my grandma pass away in our home and deteriorate from cancer as a child and I didn't understand what was happening. I don't want to see if ever again happen to a loved one or myself. If I don't know somebody I think I will be fine (as horrible as it sounds) It will be sad but I don't think it will traumatized me. Does anybody think I am crazy? I figure if I'm terrified of all these diseases and cancer, I might as well be terrified of all these diseases and cancer and help somebody, honestly I think having more medical knowledge makes me worry less because I know what is serious and what is not. Also I have learned a lot about how resilient and amazing the body is even at warding off cancer and such.