Thank to both of you for awsner my question this meens alot. Pinktee, I do go to therapy twice a month for a bout a year. The phychologist I am seeing is good at the begining of my therapy she explain to me what ocd and anxiety was. Now we are working on technics and journaling it's good but putting thinks on paper and talking about it sometime makes me feel guilty or makes me feel like a bad person. Like Pippy 187 said as you start feeling better you feel bad that who didn't take control beforehand. I guess I just have to keep positive. Unfortunately, anxiety and ocd has been hard to accept but I am getting there, I think I need to ecepted to get better. Can I ask you guys how you came to terms with it havinng ocd and anxiety order then journaling. Sometime, I just feel so ashane I know that my thoughts are not logical but still I can't get them out of my head. For sure I will try journaling everyday maybe that will help (thank you for that idea). Thank you and hope I can help you guys out sometime when you have concerns. Can I also ask my meds you guys are on if any? I am presently on Effexor 37.5 but will be asking my dr. to increase the dose or change meds completly.