Hi Fuzyyy . . .
You are having a bad time with your anxiety . . . because you do not have a guide in the process, this is intensifying your anxiety and your symptoms . . .so, Fuzyyy, please get to a professional therapist who will serve as your guide . . . please do not judge your family and friends, especially your parents harshly . . . people who do not suffer from anxiety have a difficult understanding someone who is experiencing symptoms.
Has something changed for you that might have triggered your anxiety? A therapist will help to guide you to identify these triggers and develop meaningful (to you) strategies to manage the symptoms. The good news is that you are healthy from a physical perspective. Now, you need a professional to help you back to mental health.
Please believe me (and I know that there is really no reason for you to believe me except that I have had anxiety for many, many years) that there is always hope and there is happiness . . . .going to a therapist (and you may have to try one or two before you connect with the therapist and feel comfortable) for help is no different than going to your family doctor when you hurt yourself . . . you deal with what you are experiencing by getting the best professional help available . . . I don't know how football teams work and this depends on your comfort zone with your coach, but you may want to alert him/her that you are having some "medical" issues (you don't need to go into details) and that you may or may not be able to play in the game on Saturday . . . remember: the only person that you owe anything to is yourself . . . you must invest in yourself and value yourself . . . .
Here, in this discussion forum, we may not be able to help you directly, but we do understand as we have all been through or are going through the process of dealing with anxiety issues . . . . right now it feels as if it is a nightmare because you can't get out from under it . . . .that's when an objective person like a therapist helps . . . .. eventually, you will be able to explain to your family and parents and if, right now, you do not feel as if you can discuss this with them, perhaps there is another person in whom you can trust and as that person to help you to explain to your parents what is going on and enlist their support . . . .
Remember . . .come here as much as you like . . . I may not be able to help you but we have loads of great and gracious participants here who will understand you and support you . . . please, keep in touch with us and know that it will get better . . . it takes all of us living one moment at a time, one hour at a time, or one day at a time until we regain our management of our anxiety . . . .please don't disappear on us, okay? Take care, KC