Is there any hope?

[Fuzyyy]

So i'm going through the toughest time since my anxiety disorder began. I can't seem to recognise any places that are familiar. At school, absolutely nothing feels real. I hate walking to and from school because it's freezing and I always feel as if i'm going to faint any second but never do. My vision feels so weird, it feels as if i'm in a dream all the time. Nobody seems to be familiar, be they family or friends. I am getting worse and worse day by day, minute by minute and the worst part? I have no idea what to do and nobody understands. How do I get the better of my terrible derealization? That seems to be the only problem I have now. Everything feeling so unreal and not here. I don't have any other problems, I get slight dizziness and chest discomfort here and there. But for the most part, it just feels as if I will black out any second or wake up from this nightmare. I was never an unhappy person before this and was always relaxed. But now, I just have no hope and no happiness. I can't take it anymore, my parents don't understand, i've been to the doctors and had a blood test and ECG, everything was fine. I have not been to a therapist or taken any medication. I don't want to but I am prepared to go to a therapist if I stay like this. I'm so scared about everything now, waking up early I always feel so bad, walking to school feel terrible and in school feel shocking, everyday. I have a football match on saturday, my first since my anxiety began and i'm terrified of how my vision and derealization will feel. How do I come to terms with my derealization with it being this bad and me being so scared of getting up early and walking to school again? Please, anyone, help.

[kconnors]

Hi Fuzyyy . . .

You are having a bad time with your anxiety . . . because you do not have a guide in the process, this is intensifying your anxiety and your symptoms . . .so, Fuzyyy, please get to a professional therapist who will serve as your guide . . . please do not judge your family and friends, especially your parents harshly . . . people who do not suffer from anxiety have a difficult understanding someone who is experiencing symptoms.

Has something changed for you that might have triggered your anxiety? A therapist will help to guide you to identify these triggers and develop meaningful (to you) strategies to manage the symptoms. The good news is that you are healthy from a physical perspective. Now, you need a professional to help you back to mental health.

Please believe me (and I know that there is really no reason for you to believe me except that I have had anxiety for many, many years) that there is always hope and there is happiness . . . .going to a therapist (and you may have to try one or two before you connect with the therapist and feel comfortable) for help is no different than going to your family doctor when you hurt yourself . . . you deal with what you are experiencing by getting the best professional help available . . . I don't know how football teams work and this depends on your comfort zone with your coach, but you may want to alert him/her that you are having some "medical" issues (you don't need to go into details) and that you may or may not be able to play in the game on Saturday . . . remember: the only person that you owe anything to is yourself . . . you must invest in yourself and value yourself . . . .

Here, in this discussion forum, we may not be able to help you directly, but we do understand as we have all been through or are going through the process of dealing with anxiety issues . . . . right now it feels as if it is a nightmare because you can't get out from under it . . . .that's when an objective person like a therapist helps . . . .. eventually, you will be able to explain to your family and parents and if, right now, you do not feel as if you can discuss this with them, perhaps there is another person in whom you can trust and as that person to help you to explain to your parents what is going on and enlist their support . . . .

Remember . . .come here as much as you like . . . I may not be able to help you but we have loads of great and gracious participants here who will understand you and support you . . . please, keep in touch with us and know that it will get better . . . it takes all of us living one moment at a time, one hour at a time, or one day at a time until we regain our management of our anxiety . . . .please don't disappear on us, okay? Take care, KC

[HaileyAnn]

The best thing to do would be to get a therapist. Someone who knows what they're doing can help you through this. And there IS hope. There is always hope. Don't give up, please. You'll be okay. I promise. But you can't do this on your own- and that's not a bad thing. Don't make yourself walk alone, please. <3

[Fuzyyy]

Kconnors -
My family, especially my parents, get me through everything, i love them and they're helping me through this. They just don't understand that I can't get this out of my head sometimes and it will be the only thing I talk about, it annoys them and that saddens me further. However i'm feeling better today :) I still feel funny in terms of not recognising places and sometimes when i'm speaking to someone, be it family or friend, a thought such as "do I really recognise them?" or "are they really real?" will cross my mind but today I didn't really let it get to me. Still feel funny now but I just say to myself that it can't harm you :) Yesterday was just so depressing!
Hailey -
Thank you :) if it's okay when i'm feeling down next I could PM you? without sounding weird! lol anyway I won't go through it alone, I am not alone, I promise you :)

[kconnors]

Hello,

I am s-o-o-o happy to know that you have such a great family and that your parents are working on this with you . . . . you will succeed, without a doubt . . . but I am with Hailey on this one . . . don't do it on your own . . . there is no need to do it on your own and with your family on your side and your parents there in your corner, you will succeed . . . glad that you are doing better today . . . .take care, KC

[HaileyAnn]

Hailey -
Thank you :) if it's okay when i'm feeling down next I could PM you? without sounding weird! lol anyway I won't go through it alone, I am not alone, I promise you :)

You could definitely! If you need someone, I am here.  <3

[Fuzyyy]

Thanks guys:) it's good to know that there's always hope! :)