you amaze me. you ask for help then get some suggestions and then you find ways to shoot them down or not acknowledge them.
the things gcalex mentioned are herbs or vitamin type supplements. You didn't even acknowledge the CBT things he mentioned.
none of us can do this for you. you have to decide to do it. you have to take the initiative to learn about these things. NOTHING, NOTHING is going to be handed you on a silver platter and then all of a sudden your problems are solved.
again, AGAIN, AGAIN this will take MONTHS of YOU making a commitment to getting better, using the tools over and over and expanding on them before you begin to even see the light at the end of the tunnel. THIS isn't going to be you asking us for help/suggestions, followed by you not doing any of the suggestions and then you continuing in your reactive habits and then lamenting that you are not better. THIS is the unhealthy cycle you are in. We can't break that cycle. If you don't break that cycle, it isn't going to impact our lives only yours.
Do what you KNOW you have to do. Take responsiblity for getting better then get started with it.
You know right now in my life I have a bowl full of rotten cherries. My hubs has a diagnosis that we are working on addressing, my mother had a stroke and is on a ventilator and we have to decide whether to continue with the ventilator. She is GRAVELY ill. I mean at death's door gravely ill. I have another daughter who needs to see a rheumatologist. ANother child that may need testing to see why she hasn't gotten a menstrual cycle at 16. My eldests seizures are not getting better AND dealing with lice in the house for a month now( sort of like the nastiest cherry)............. AND guess what? I'm having all kinds of weird body sensations. Even my right eye is giving me problems. Most if not all of this stuff is going to end up being directly related to all of the stress I'm going through. Luckily I can see that. While it can be difficult, I am not fixating on these things. I've learned a thing or two in my years. If I chose to, I could very easily indulge all of those symptoms, like you are doing and just end up in Catastrophicville. But how that would help me or my husband or my mother or my children?
How is that helping you? The only difference between you and me is that I've learned what anxiety does to people. I can see the triggers. I can see the stresses. I have chosen the proactive habits. In your case your endlessly reinforcing your triggers and faulty thinking. You fixate on your pulse (that is, sorry, but NORMAL)or some other heart thing and have decided it is dangerous. You accept only what your faulty thinking tells you. You are in the endless loop. AND as I mentioned at the top of my post here, you discard or ignore any suggestions given you to get you better. You seem to expect that it will go away by merely wanting it to. But it doesn't nor will it ever work that way.
do you not think you deserve better than what you are telling yourself?