I overheard 2 women at school on Monday. One of the women was talking to the other about how doctors don't find heart problems. She was disappointed. She was telling her that her husband was in the e.r due to chest pain while he was outside snowing, and when he got there they told him there's nothing wrong with his heart. A couple days later he returned with an actual heart attack. The women was furious complaining about the doctors being pointless if they couldn't even catch his blocked artery the first time he went.
I was at the dentist yesterday in the waiting room waiting for my turn. I got bored so I picked up a magazine, even though I was not at ease mentally or physically and didn't feel like reading at all. I went to the table of contents and saw a section involving anxiety, so I jumped to it. Hoping it will help me in some way. In the end I regretted ever opening the article. I started reading about worry and anxiety and I came across a statement saying women worry about cancer when they have a highly bigger chance of getting heart disease.
You can imagine how the above made me feel and what it made me think..
Oh and btw, I have 10 cavities and 3 root canals..
No matter where I turn, I get punched so hard in the face. And I swear guys, I feel TERRIBLE right now. I'm thinking I have valve prolapse from the fast heart rate I've had for months. I have sharp chest pains right on top of the heart area and on the upper left chest as well, and my left arm is weak. This is not normal.. Last night I awoke about 7 times for no reason. I'll be sleeping then I'll find myself awake, eyes open and alert with a feeling that I didn't even sleep. I felt like I just closed my eyes for a while and didn't go into deep sleep yet. Very frustrating being awoken many times during the night AND early morning, without even knowing why. And yesterday I was exhausted (I have been getting only 7 hours these past 2 days when I usually get 9) , going to sleep I was certain I wouldn't awake until my alarm rung. Turns out when I really needed the sleep it was disrupted too many times..
I came back from the dentist 2 hours ago, feeling like crap physically and mentally but trying to get my mind off that. I got on my laptop and launched IMVU to have some fun, and while logging in I had a dizzy spell. My vision wasn't blurry but I just automatically swayed left to right there there in my seat. My head moved on it's own and I couldn't stop it. The last thing I want to be is dizzy, and now things are getting there..
I had a filling done. My mouth is numb it's noon and i'm not supposed to be eating anything even though I'm starving. Plus I feel pain within the 2 teeth they worked with, I think I shouldn't be feeling any pain.. I didn't feel any pain BEFORE going to the dentist.
And the fact I'm sleepy right now is freaking me out..
Thanks to those who read this..