i'm trying to stay away from the boards for my own benefit right now. i find that sometimes the boards fuel some fears for me. i love knowing that they are here and when i find myself in a panic, this is where i will come before i go to google :) i wish i could just come on and offer support somehow but for now, i can't.
except for this ;)
i had a little revelation the other day and thought i'd share it. 2 things really. one, it's been said before, but worth repeating. acceptance. acceptance is key. i have been accepting a little more each day this past year and the other day i said to myself. this is life. things happen. good AND bad. it's not going to stop happening. there are going to be things that i have to deal with. worrying endlessly about one thing, thinking "if this would just go away i'd be okay" is so wrong. because, there is always the next thing. so i'm changing my thinking. instead, i'm saying, "there will be things that come along, I will have to face them" That is life. it just is. I'm wasting the good worrying about the bad. Not to say I won't worry some, but I'm going to try to accept the worry for what it is and not exaggerate it.
Also, i wondered if the relief brought on by reassurance is addictive. so, we get all amped up with worry about a medical problem, then we get a negative test result and that wave of relief feels so good that we start the process all over again. just an awareness that i wanted to bring up. sometimes just being aware helps things to dissipate.
so, that's my 2 cents for now. just wanted to put it out there.
thanks for listening :)