Bf thinks I am a nut.

[Jewel311]

I have anxiety and have had anxiety.......... for as long as I can remember.  It has changed over the years, gone away, come back, etc.

Probably because of my anxiety I do not do well in relationships.  Once my signifcant other sees how absolutely wrapped up in anxiety I can get, he usually doesn't "understand" it.  It is also hard for me to explain.  I suffer from a lot of health anxiety, and compulsively googling illnesses seems ridiculous to him.  He actually thinks my "anxiety" is just a cover, and I am really upset about something more.  It is just a mess. Try explaining a panic attack to someone who has virtually no anxiety.  Yes, he gets nervous before an interview or something, but he doesn't take deep breaths and yawn all the time  because he "can't get air," he doesn't pull over the car because he's freaking out and feels like passing out, he doesn't miss work because he wakes up and is riddled with fear.  He just doesn't get what MY anxiety does to me. It makes me sad and it makes me feel like we won't last.........

Not sure how to cope with this. Anyone?

[camel]

I know where you are coming from. It can be really difficult to have anxiety and a relationship. And it is so hard for a non sufferer to understand.
I often think that the best thing is to sort out your anxiety first then to focus on a relationship. I am not saying it isn't possible to have both, millions do. But if you find your anxiety repeatedly affecting relationships, then maybe it is time to work on your anxiety issues first.

That being said, I also believe that the right person will do all they can to educate themselves about their partner's condition and try their best to help.

In my opinion you should work more on your anxiety right now. I hope you feel better :)