Having a hard day...work is 10x more difficult like this

[jranaudo]

Guess I'm just looking for support. Suffering from major anxiety and it makes my job 10x harder. Working under this doom and fear is just miserable. I've suffered from anxiety since I've been 24 in stressful IT careers and I'm miserable. Things is my job is good and life is good but my thoughts fail to see this and only bring fear.

Just want it to end. Thanks for listening.

[jwall378]

I can relate to your situation. I dread every morning when I have to get up and go to work. It's very difficult to concentrate and be productive at work when my anxiety levels are up. I went through an Intensive Outpatient Program for anxiety/depression back in September and October and did very well when I went back to work. It seems like my anxiety is creeping back into my workday everyday again though. I may look for a new job soon. It's getting to the point where a job is not worth losing my physical/mental health over. Hopefully I can find a job that I would actually enjoy getting up in the morning and going to.

[jranaudo]

Thanks for your reply.

I just had another nervous breakdown. After a long and incredibly hard day I was tired and emotionally drained. I leave and my phone won't stop ringing. People won't leave me alone and think I work 24 hours a day.

Well I finally snapped and just started breaking down in tears. The thing is I think I do much of this to myself. Yes the job is incredibly hard and stressful but I should be able to handle it I say to myself. I just can't let work go to the point even when I am NOT working I am thinking about work. I am beyond burnout.

I make great money but nothing and I mean nothing is worth this.

[angielee]

What type of job do you do that is that sressful?  A lot of companies are putting too much on people now days what three people did several years ago now companies are having one person do.