Hi D:) My man, I feel ya'. I've been where you are right now....freaking about heart stuff. Mine was 25+ years ago:) In 25 years from now, you'll look back upon this time and reflect, as well. Hopefully, you'll be reflecting from a point of view of having been moving down a healing path for many years (as I do:)
I understand - you feel your case is different, or worse, or that you are actually going to die from a heart attack eventhough you've passed all med tests and Doc visits, to date. You feel destined to be "THE ONE". It feels SO REAL (what's going on in your chest), I know. Trouble is I was 'the one', too....we have pretty much ALL been 'the one', at one time or another. Good thing that our self-diagnosing is incredibly horrific and good thing that, overall, HA peeps tend to be pretty darn healthy in the end (just like the general population, overall). Else, this forum would have but two or three peeps talking back and forth about moles and eye floaters and tingling and PVCs:)
Anywho, your echo will come out AOK. No doubts in my mind having gone back a read all of your previous posts. So, then you'll have to make a gameplan. A gameplan of how you can being to move away from medical intervention and move towards a healing path for your mental health challenges. I promise you that there has never been any lasting peace from Cardiophobia afforded to us by an EKG or Echocardiogram....and there never will be, when we are struggling. The reason there is but fleeting relief from med testing is that we have mental health issues and NOT physical health crises, OVERWHELMINGLY.
I would start investigating your options for help for anxiety - today. Can't hurt. Get a days head start, as your echo is tomorrow. I know - you feel you're pretty doomed right now. I was a 'dead man walking'.....27 years ago:)
The panic is powerful. SOOOOOOOOOOO freaking powerful. It is based in faulty thinking, though. It is based in our bad habits and actions. It is based in our fear cycles that we perpetuate by those bad habits and actions. Your echo will be fine. Then what?
Peace and Feel Well:)