Hi! I joined this forum because I am away at college, dealing with my anxiety, panic and OCD. I am four hours or so away from home and I absolutely cannot deal with the distance. I wanted to transfer at the end of this fall semester but my parents won't let me and want me to stick it out for a year although I do not think I will be able to make it through another whole semester. I am supposed to go back in a few days but I am dreading it. I had a break down today over it and went to my therapist. It pains me to have to put my mom through this but going away to school was a mistake when I can thrive at a college much closer to home and I wish they would let me transfer to a CC for this spring semester.
To put a little perspective: my anxiety started when I was about 13. I used to travel to Europe with a group of students every summer and on my second trip we visited Poland and Auschwitz which really disturbed me. I had my first ever panic attack later that night, thousands of miles from home, only 13, and not with any family. Ever since then I have been suffering from anxiety and panic attacks which have had peaks and valleys in the last five years. My anxiety has mostly been fear of having an attack like I did that night in Europe, alone, away from home I had a horrible time with anxiety in my sophomore year of high school, probably due to experimenting with some drugs and alcohol but I have avoided both like the plague since and my anxiety has gotten better. It improved drastically in senior year, but now at college is flaring up severely and I'm at a loss for what to do.
I also suffer from some OCD and intrusive thoughts along with some religious themed OCD ones that I know are just absurd, but they give me panic attacks when I am away from home.
I have never been on medication but I think I may have finally reached my breaking point and want to consider trying something like Prozac. That's basically it. Any help or advice would be greatly appreciated. I decided to join this forum because I officially realized that the rest of my life I will most likely be dealing with this anxiety. Thanks.