Im going crazy! ):

[MusicLover13]

Hi, I have been dating my boyfriend for a year now, and we are in complete love with each other.. we talk about marriage, having children and such.. anyways, I started taking zoloft 4 days ago.. from really bad anxiety and thoughts about dying that i couldnt take anymore, and now I feel like I dont even love him anymore.. Normally I will miss him when we dont talk for a while and we havent talked for a day because hes hunting and coming back tomorrow, and I dont even feel like I miss him.. I feel like all my feelings are gone from him and it makes me cry because I am scared I am falling out of love with him )': and that is something I DO NOT want. ): Does anyone have advice? please.

[MusicLover13]

Anyone? ):

[NikkixD]

Hello,

Trust me on this one I know EXACTLY how you feel, I am only 18 but my boyfriend and I have been together for almost 2 years now, he is living with me and we are with each other 24/7. I really feel like I have experienced love he means the world to me and I never had these thoughts before and until one day. They just randomly happened I woke up feeling sad, and not sure why. I then realized I was sad because I just couldn't feel love for my boyfriend. I know it was there though.

I felt if I don't miss him right away when he leaves it means that I don't love him anymore, and then I freak out and get sad because I KNOW I love him and I get sad because I don't know why I am thinking these thoughts. If you haven't heard of ROCD (Relationship OCD) then you should read about it, its what I have and a lot of people suffer with I have had it since middle of October, and still have it. Going to therapy and reading more about ROCD has REALLY helped me I can love my boyfriend and feel happy and in love again, the thoughts are still always there but im learning to live with it. (:

My boyfriend and I are more than happy together still and plan on staying that way.
Stay strong and best of luck! (:

[MusicLover13]

Thank you so much for the reply (: ROCD does sound A LOT like me. I'm just scared I wont be able to get over it, it is making me feel physically sick, and I keep thinking about just breaking up with him..but its not something i want to do ):

[NikkixD]

No no no no please don't break up with him, if you know that you DON'T want it don't do it. Its your mind tricking you, anxiety just messes with your emotions. I felt the same way at first I wanted him to leave all the time because I just felt awful, but after about a month and a half of just obsessing and stressing over my boyfriend I just said, enough. I love this boy with all my heart and that't all that matters, if you KNOW your happy and you would be sad without him don't break up. (:

I thought I was going to be like this forever but now that time has gone by and i am very open with him about how I was feeling he was SOO supportive and showed nothing but love to me, even though i couldn't really "feel" the love and emotions he was showing me and putting into our relationship at the time, i knew he really cared for me and this was the guy i want in my life.

Trust me hun, if you didn't love your boyfriend anymore you would NOT be stressing over him this much, now if you really didn't love him you probably wouldn't care as much. Caring is a true sign of love. (:

P.S,
Sorry it took so long to reply haha! Hope your feeling better!