Hi SNM:) Well, you're preggos....congrats, but this can surely amp up our worries. Of course, I don't have first hand experience of this....but this has been echoed numerous times throughout The AZ:) We worry about our kids (born and not yet quite here:) No way getting around this...so it is best to not try, that much. Simply, to me, we have to learn how to channel this nervous energy into a more appropriate outlet. And, never will it be appropriate for you to be on Lymphoma forums or scouring the internet about Lyphoma symptoms or Lymphoma survival rates or how to beat Lymphoma, etc. Reasons:
1. You do not have Lymphoma. Yes, it can be a little tricky in identifying what type of Lymphoma might be present. But, OVERWHELMINGLY, Docs and med testing points out that something is askew - very askew usually. And, THEN, they keep digging unil they find out what's going on. There is no 'THEN', in your case. And no matter how much anxiety fudges with us, we cannot just make a 'THEN' happen....no matter what we believe....no matter what we feel....no matter - no matter - no matter - no matter.
2. You have HA / Anxiety. Googling and internet self-diagnosing is a NO-NO. And, never will it be a YES-YES. Never...never....never. There will be no lasting solace when we give our amped up mind the fuel it needs to keep us locked up in a fear cycle. Continue with bad habits and fear cycles, overwhelmingy, will continue...and they ramp up too. Stop bad habits and we have some hope and something to build a self-reassuring foundation upon. It really is as simple as that. Simple to get there? Likely not. But, ask yourself where doing what you have been doing has led you? We have to be candid and have some self-realization in our assessment. Who cares where we are right now as we sit - or what we have done in the past, really? I know that's not entirely true - just trying to make a point:) But, what really matters is what we do from here on out:) Yesterday is gone. Today is still here. Tomorrow is coming, whether we are anxious about it or not. What really matters is our actions and habits today....then tomorrow will be another today (and we can focus on our habits and actions of that 'today':)
Peace and Feel Well:)