I am not accustomed to talking about my feelings so this is rather hard for me, but here goes, I am struggling with severe agoraphobia and while I am usually okay with people I know and feel safe with, it is awful for me to have to interact with new people or those I don't know. I just feel really scared and break out in cold sweats when that happens. I am at the point where I am avoiding going to the mall or job interviews or even bars because I am so terrified of new people and getting a panic attack. I also suffer from SEVERE claustrophobia and will not take elevators unless someone is with me or it is absoultely necessary. I am sick of living like this but I am scared of medication too. What can I do? I can't keep living like this. I am not depressed, but my anxiety really plays bad tricks on me, keeping me isolated in "safe" situations which usually means home. When I have a job interview to go on, my heart races, my palms sweat, and I feel like I am going to pass out. I have to try and force myself not to talk too fast. Sometimes, when I feel really backed into a corner, I even blush and I can feel my face turning red and hot and I just want to die right then and there from embarrassment. I am also an openly gay male in a rather conservative state, so I always feel asl if people are going to be judging me regardless. Is there any hope for helping this? I am so scared of medication, and have never seen a psychiatrist. I called one the other day to try and make an appointment, but she said to call back at the end of this month because they are so booked. In the mean time, I have some zoloft that was prescribed for me but I am scared to continue it because it gave me serious insomnia and night jitters. I am thinking of asking my doc to try a different medication that is a bit sleep-friendlier, perhaps Prozac or Paxil. I just want to beat this!