I have had this same fear for probably six months now and it is honestly runing my life. I am terrified that my son who is 20 months old has autism. I have no idea why I am so afraid of this. I guess I am scared for his future. I have done so much reading on this that even if I never looked on google again I have already memorized far too much. He is 20 months old and he doesn't point with his index finger. He never has and won't even if I try to gt him to and I have read in so many places that this is a major indicator of autism.
In addition to this, he has always been into matching things up. He will carry two matching toys around and put groups of matching toys together although he doesn't line things up.
He also has a lot of sensory seeking issues. He runs from one sofa to the other. He shuffles, jumps, gallops, runs from one end of the house to the other and seems to crave constant movement.
I know there are a lot of positive things he does. He likes playing with other children, talks in dull sentences, can be affectionate, very interactive, imitates well, initiates games etc etc etc.
However I must have read a million stories of people saying 'oh yeah, my child was really social and had great eye contact but they were still diagnosed with ASD later on and not pointing at things was the firat sign'.
I have taken him to the health visitor who wasn't worried but said she would see him again when he's two. Because his speech is so good they won't refer him to anyone.
My anxiety about this out of control and way disproportionate to the actual problem even if it does exist. I am not sleeping because of it, I am a nervous wreck and it's another four months until he gets seen again so there is literally nothing I can do other than wait it out. It's killing me. We were hoping to try for another baby this year but there's just no way, and as I am 36 this year I don't have heaps of time on my side. We have two children already so maybe I just need to be content with that but we would both like a third and I feel like my anxiety is stooping that from happening as well.
I don't know what else to do. I can't deal with feeling this bad every day, I have tried to rationalize it. I have CBT and it didn't help. I am out of ideas on how to deal with this.