So this is my first post on here. And I'm not really sure if this is the right forum for this particular post.
But now that it's 2013 Im trying to get my life together in a sense, and hopefully you guys will be able to help me out!
So my story is, I've always had anxiety issues, but I never really did anything about them until I had some intense experiences such as walking on a bridge, and getting a really strong urge to jump off, now im not suicidal but It's maddening constantly thinking about jumping off and i realize it is just anxiety however it is very scary. The other problem may not seem like as big a deal as the previous, but this is really starting to affect my life. So I've joined and quit this MMA gym twice now in the past year after hardly ever going, and I just joined again a month ago, and im paying 150 dollars a month for this, and I really enjoy it everytime but everytime I want to go, I get really freaked out and come up with a thousand reasons not to. I'll tell myself okay you have to go, you can't not go, and right before it starts I will not go. Infact a class I wanted to make myself go to all day today starts in 20 minutes and I just won't go. Is this social anxiety? Why can't I do this when I really enjoy everything about it, and everything I could potentially gain from it. Please help!