I'm a 32 y.o. female who had my first panic attack at age 22, and have suffered from depression since around the age of 17. I have tried the gamut of all drugs out there. Paxil, nope. Zoloft. Nope. Prozac. Nope. Cymbalta OH HECK NO, horrible side effects. Viibrid. Nope. I know there's something I am forgetting. Oh yea, Wellbutrin. Nope. Nothing helps me. I am currently taking 20 mg of Lexapro and am on 2mg Xanax XR twice a day, which honestly seems ridiculous. I feel embarrassed taking 4mg of Xanax a day and it doesn't even seem to help. Oh not to mention the .5 mg I was prescribed for "extra" anxiety which lets face it, I take one every day or so. I have just tried adding a vitamin B complex for the past 4 days and it's weird but it seems like my anxiety seems to be not as high. I work at a pretty high stress, busy job, and most of my days I feel like my blood pressure is about 200/180. But the last few days I feel like I am more relaxed. Is it just me?? Anyway. Just wanted to post my little story, as this is my first post, or reply I guess you could say. But I want to feel normal. Like I don't have to take pills or go talk to someone once a week to keep on even keel. Sometimes my husband calls me lazy because I don't want to "help myself" all I want to do is take pills. He doesn't understand when I have no energy to even get out of bed, or brush my teeth. Or that even something as simple as taking a shower seems like running a marathon. I take pills because I don't know what else there is to do. That's not what I want. Does anyone want to have to take a pill just to make their heart stop racing or stop making them jump at the sound of a pin drop?? Or be driving down the interstate and be hit with a panic attack so bad you have to pull over to the side of the road because you think you are going to pass out? NO. It's very frustrating to be married to someone who thinks that all I have to do is "change the way I think." HA. Ok. So I am rambling and probably boring people, but I am typing and the stuff just keeps coming so I'll wind down for now. Just wanted to hop on the train of this thread and make use of some other resources available. Maybe talking to others in my same boat will help me. Best wishes to all out there.