Guess I should start of by telling you a bit about myself! I am 28 and live in London, work a 9 to 5 and am very lucky to have great family and friends.
I have however, suffered for many years with various levels of OCD, phobia, anxiety, depression and everything else that is associated with it.
It started when I developed a bad dental phobia which more or less controlled my life for over 10 years, everything about life revolved around it, as a result I developed OCD behaviors, became depressed, panic attacks etc. Fast forward to last year and to cut a long story short...I beat my phobia! I am no longer afraid of the dentist and have no fear/anxiety related to it anymore.
I guess I thought that after I beat the thing that I thought was the source of my issues everything would change and life would seem easy! For a little while and at certain times I guess it does! But I still suffer from anxiety and panic attacks when certain things in my life change or don't go as planned.
For instance, as silly as it sounds, for over a week now I have had serious anxiety worry about my much loved pet that has developed a few issues, despite going to the vet and it appears that should will improve in time, it still hasn't seemed to offer me much solace, still worry every time I see my pet, and can't help by check him (much like I did with my teeth when I suffered with them), and can't seem to get negative thoughts related to it out of my head. I haven't slept properly in over a week, had butterflies and worse the whole time so found it hard to eat, find myself shaking regularly and have felt very much unhappy since. I also hate the fact that the source of my problems at the moment are related to something I do not have direct control over.
Sorry to bombard you with details, just thought I would share how I am feeling at the moment and hopefully be able to become part of this community:).
Thank you for reading!