I have had health anxiety for years, but this latest bout is the worst yet. A few months ago, I started having some back pain, gas, and diarrhea. It lasted for a couple of weeks, then seemed to clear up. When it came back a month ago, I went to see my family doctor. He ordered an abdominal ultrasound, which was normal. I had started having some cramping in my lower left pelvis too. When I told him my fears about ovarian cancer (thanks, google), he sent me for a pelvic and transvaginal ultrasound, which was also normal. I saw my gyno today, just to get some advice from a lady-parts expert. He did a pelvic exam and said it felt normal. To ease my mind, he ordered a CA 125 test, which I am still waiting to hear back on. The gyno found a trace of blood in my urine, so he prescribed antibiotics.
It's just driving me crazy. I know the statistics. I am 31 years old with no fame history. I have a child. I have taken birth control on and off for several years. I know how unlikely it is that I have ovarian cancer, but I can't get it out of my head. I can't sleep. I have no appetite. I am feeling completely out of control.
A little history - this has been probably the most stressful year of my life. I gave birth to my first child in January, and i struggled with post partum depression. My father committed 0119 in August, and my mother moved in with us. My husband and I are closing on our first home tomorrow.
I am here because I wanted to talk to some people who have been where I am and who understand what I am going through. I am going to start seeing a psychiatrist next week. I just want to get better. I miss the happy, relaxed person I used to be.