My name is Sam. I am a 22 year old female studying to get my masters in Elementary Education. I have visited this site many times through google search results, but finally felt the need to join. My goal is to use this site to distinguish between my rational/irrational worries and fears, and to use this as an outlet to see that I'm not alone.
I haven't spoke to a medical professional about my problem, but I know it exists. I find myself almost always worrying about something. If i'm on the way to work at the mall, I'm worried about a parking spot. If I am driving down the road, I'm worrying i'm speeding, a car is going to cut over and hit me, or I'm going to get caught in a red light. If I have an assignment due, I'm worried some event will prohibit me turning it on time. Recently, my finances have been a huge issue. I have thousands of dollars in my account right now, but find myself analyzing a budget for my last semester of college and being TERRIFIED I will not have any money by May. Although finances are a frequent worry for people, I will sit and calculate how much I will spend on everything each month, will it last? And subtract it from my total right now. The list goes on and on and on. The worry can last a minute, or hours, or constant. Like I said, I haven't been diagnosed, but I know my problem is getting worse and I plan on visiting a medical professional in the very near future. I am fearful for my parents' insurance rates going up for mental health disorders, so I haven't visited the doctor yet on this issue.
I hope that reading your threads will help me come to terms with what is going on. My mother suffers from depression, but never had any of the symptoms that I do. There are many times that I overreact to a situation way beyond my control, and not even important, by sobbing for up to an hour and randomly after that. My parents are at a loss because neither of them have experienced these symptoms or can understand why I am the way I am and why I do the things I do. Therefore, I think this site will help me find others who do understand and can help me reason things out without burdening my parents who don't understand. I also want some strategies to cope with how I feel, especially when I have an "episode" where I essentially lose control of my feelings and emotions and overanalyze a situation to the point it makes me sick! I'm fearful that this is interferring with my daily life and my relationships!
Thanks for reading and I look forward to posting and reading your posts! :)