I want to feel better.. Lately I've been trying to think more positive and believe I'm fine.... but I now have these new symptoms that are really scaring me. I'm sorry guys.. I wish I wasn't like this but it's just not me.. I made a choice to let it all go.. but my situation is getting worse, how can I not be concerned? And I've called many places for free therapy, nothing.. So please, just be with me here and tell me what you think of the below..
I get this tickling/fluttering sensation in my throat every now and then. And when that happens it is often accompanied with me not feeling so well. I have a feeling it is heart related..
Second, I've noticed when I feel sick, weak and faint, I get up and start walking and when my heart starts beating a little faster I feel better. This has me thinking I've a lack of blood being pumped or low blood pressure, or heart failure and when I get up I help to replace the amount of blood I'm missing.
Third, months ago. When I was mentally and physically healthy, I would notice my heart pound through my chest the way it should when I run, jog, dance, etc. In it's strong way. Now, I'll run and the strength of that pound I used to and should be getting has decreased majorly. Before, when I'm even like really nervous or scared my heart will pound. Now, no matter what I do, my heart beat is weaker. I really want to cry.. i swear..
Fourth, I get this sharp pain on the left side of my breast (under my arm), and right on top of the heart area too. It's sharp and sudden and I don't even know why I'm getting it..
I also get this feeling in my throat like when you're about to throw up and like after you've been breathing cold air for a long time. Nauseated, tight throat.
I just don't feel well overall. I tried not thinking about anything, I put on my favorite music and started dancing. Shortly after I feel like throwing up, short breathed, and heavy body.. this is just terrible..
all my doors are closed.. no therapy.. medicaid hasn't even accepted me yet.. so no primary doctor to talk to..
i REALLY want to get another echo. because i had one a month ago, and since then for a month i've been having crazy heart rates of 80-90 resting. maybe.. my retarded mind has damaged my heart.. oh god.. please no.