Tickle-lick sensation in my lower throat (where it connects to the chest)

[AbnormallyAnxious]

I want to feel better.. Lately I've been trying to think more positive and believe I'm fine.... but I now have these new symptoms that are really scaring me. I'm sorry guys.. I wish I wasn't like this but it's just not me.. I made a choice to let it all go.. but my situation is getting worse, how can I not be concerned? And I've called many places for free therapy, nothing.. So please, just be with me here and tell me what you think of the below..
I get this tickling/fluttering sensation in my throat every now and then. And when that happens it is often accompanied with me not feeling so well. I have a feeling it is heart related..
Second, I've noticed when I feel sick, weak and faint, I get up and start walking and when my heart starts beating a little faster I feel better. This has me thinking I've a lack of blood being pumped or low blood pressure, or heart failure and when I get up I help to replace the amount of blood I'm missing.
Third, months ago. When I was mentally and physically healthy, I would notice my heart pound through my chest the way it should when I run, jog, dance, etc. In it's strong way. Now, I'll run and the strength of that pound I used to and should be getting has decreased majorly. Before, when I'm even like really nervous or scared my heart will pound. Now, no matter what I do, my heart beat is weaker. I really want to cry.. i swear..
Fourth, I get this sharp pain on the left side of my breast (under my arm), and right on top of the heart area too. It's sharp and sudden and I don't even know why I'm getting it..

I also get this feeling in my throat like when you're about to throw up and like after you've been breathing cold air for a long time. Nauseated, tight throat.

I just don't feel well overall. I tried not thinking about anything, I put on my favorite music and started dancing. Shortly after I feel like throwing up, short breathed, and heavy body.. this is just terrible..

all my doors are closed.. no therapy.. medicaid hasn't even accepted me yet.. so no primary doctor to talk to..

i REALLY want to get another echo. because i had one a month ago, and since then for a month i've been having crazy heart rates of 80-90 resting. maybe.. my retarded mind has damaged my heart.. oh god.. please no.

[sixpack]

sigh

I was wondering how long it would be before you needed another echo.


what about self-help CBT modules that could get you started?  There is one posted on this page and I believe in the Meds/Therapy section.  You could legitmatly google CBT modules and find more online options.  You could even go to a book store and find some self-help books/manuals.  THere are other things you can do as well:  meditation, yoga, positive affirmations, self talk the right way, exercise, hobbies etc, etc.  I know this means taking a few chances that you are indeed well and that it is only your BEASTY that is lying to you.  But if you want to get better, you have to do these things.

I'm telling you right NOW that another echo won't solve your problem with your heart fears. AND even if it did, you'd just move onto a new disease/illness fear.   Your heart is fine, it is your thinking that has you in the frenzy.  Your thinking is being completely fouled up by your anxiety disorder.  While it isn't your fault you have a disoder, actions you are taking feed and grow it to monstrous new heights.

While I would be happy if you would take the lying bull by the horns and get on your healing path rather than worrying needlessly over you heart or what have you, but this is all on you.  I could talk to you until I was blue in the face, but it would be a waste my time.    YOU have to want it.  You have to walk the walk and talk the talk.   

[AbnormallyAnxious]

I got this book called 'You are not your brain'. It doesn't help the slightest bit.

Sixpack, I just wanted to say I really appreciate all your posts..

Above I've stated like 5 things that have changed with me physically. Wouldn't you be concerned if you had all those?

[gcalex]

AA, you are paying waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay too much attention to your body, if ANYONE did that they would start noticing things.  You have anxiety.  You have a thought disorder.  You do not need another echo.  Keep reading, something will make an impression on you, Hope and Help for Your Nerves, When Panic Attacks, there are others.

[sixpack]

I probably DO have five things change on me quite often.  I just don't turn them into something sinister anymore.  I haven't been to the doc for reassurance nor had any reassurance testing in almost 4yrs now.  I have learned that anxious over thinking is HIGHLY unreliable and I choose not to indulge in such fearful reactive behaviors.   I've learned that anxiety wears a person out emotionally and physically.   I go to the doctor for annual physicals or when something like ear infection or what have you pops up.  Oh, wait, I had a spot on my hand change size, color and got a crust on it.  It happened about 6 months ago and I decided to watch it.  Then it did it again in early December.  AT that point I said,  "hmm this may be one of the lesser skin cancers.  I should have it checked out."  I did.  The PA froze it off saying it was either a keritanizing lesion that often becomes cancerous or it was squamous cell carcinoma.  So big deal.  I found a legitimate issue and took care of it.  You are not really finding legit issues but you get them checked out and then need them checked out again and again  OR  you fault a doctor or test for not finding your heart to be falling apart.  The only thing you hold reliable is THE thing that is messing you up---your anxious over thinking.

and if one book didn't help, does that mean you dismiss all self-help books?

a couple of analogies would be:  I read a book once.  I didn't like the story or the content SO I'm not going to read anymore because all books stink.

 OR.

I need to lose weight.  I ran 1 mile and didn't eat any junk food today but I  didn't lose the 20 pounds.  So see diet & exercise doesn't lead to losing weight.

[AbnormallyAnxious]

For that tickling sensation, I googled and found this 18 year old girl that had the same symptoms I do.


Check this out.. http://www.0171.com/boards/heart-disorders/483659-tickle-like-sensation-throat-other-symptoms.html

[gcalex]

Well if you are going to ignore the numerous people here who have cautioned against Googling symptoms, you are going to reap what you sew -- more fear.   Same if you want to be your own cardiologist.  You've had the checkups, you've had the tests, they didn't find anything.  At this point, the choice is yours.

[sixpack]

For that tickling sensation, I googled and found this 18 year old girl that had the same symptoms I do.


Check this out.. http://www.0171.com/boards/heart-disorders/483659-tickle-like-sensation-throat-other-symptoms.html

wow you really are a gluten for punishing yourself aren't you?  by doing your "google searches in an effort to prove to yourself (and anybody that will listen) that YOU ARE RIGHT and docs and med testing are wrong" all you do is entrench your faulty thinking.   Basically the only thing you are doing is harming your own emotional/physical well being.  That being said, if you want to do that to yourself, that is your prerogative. 

HOWEVER---I know I don't ever look at disease forum links and anyone else here shouldn't either.

[AbnormallyAnxious]

I had found that before even making this thread I didn't post it to prove that you/doctors are wrong.

WHY do I have all those symptoms? Why do I keep getting this tickling sensation in my throat like one one would get after having palpitations all day (when I haven't) ? Why do I feel nauseated? Why is my body super heavy?

Seriously guys, what happens to the heart of someone when it beats 80-100 all day everyday (resting) ? When I move it's like 100-130, that's not normal. I'm not exercising.. I'm just walking, doing chores, going upstairs, etc..

I seriously need another echo guys. After seeing that the heart HAS NOT been damaged, I'll finally get the relief I need. I'll stop worrying when it beats the way it does. Fast, weak, whatever, I won't care. I'll just stop worrying. 'Cause I'll have gotten an echo after all the things I THOUGHT I had, and I'll see that (hopefully) I didn't even have anything.

But I don't think they'll even let me get another, since my last one was claimed 'fine'. But they don't know how my body & heart have been acting lately. They don't know how I've been stressing everything lately.. they don't know my symptoms, and even if I tell them they won't believe me, just because my last one was fine.. they don't know what I'm going through . I should have gotten a holtor. I could have something that comes and goes.

[gcalex]

The stress hormones produced by anxious people can certainly increase heart rate and cause all the other symptoms you mention.  You need to STOP taking your pulse, googling your symptoms, etc. 

[sixpack]

The stress hormones produced by anxious people can certainly increase heart rate and cause all the other symptoms you mention.  You need to STOP taking your pulse, googling your symptoms, etc.

I know it isn't going to mean anything to you AA    BUT  ^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^this right here that I quoted is WHY your heart does that.


and the line that you seriously need ANOTHER echo and THIS time it will  prove that you heart is not damaged is a LOAD of BUNK.  it is.  AND it is what a bazillion other hypoes say when they "need" another round of testing.........  it is the exact same words except for which test that they want.

 your last echo came out "fine".  What the hell do you think that means? You say "fine" like you think it is code for,,,,  "heh, heh, heh we are just incompetent docs and we don't know what a normal echo looks like or what a bad echo looks like. so let's just tell her "fine".   Whether you see it or not:  By insisting on another echo that is what you think "fine" means.     But actually fine means normal.  In fact you posted what the nurse told you. 

so you can go ahead and rationalize all the stuff in your head and run and get another echo but it will NOT STOP YOUR HEART FEARS OR IT WILL JUST TRANSFER TO ANOTHER ISSUE.  How do I know this?  Because I've done it to myself AND I've seen countless others on this website do the SAME THING.  Your thinking, your posts, your words, your fears sound just like everybody else's here.  You are stuck in the fear cycle just like many people here.  You are not adequately addressing your anxiety disorder.  Like I said before the only thing you deem reliable is your anxious over thinking.  Which is the LEAST reliable source of info you have at your fingertips.  EVERY sensation and thought you have is being filtered through your faulty thinking.  That means you are listening and reacting to the lies you are telling yourself.  THAT is what an anxiety disorder is  LIES we tell ourselves.

 Again the frame of mind that you are in will not allow anything I say or what anyone else says around here is going to get through to you.  You have allowed your BEASTY to drag you away. 

I shall not be posting on this thread any longer or any other thread that pertains to your "heart issues" as I've said about all there is to be said.

So do what you want to do.  That is your right.  It is your body, your life, your money.   

good luck and be well.

[gcalex]

I agree with everything sixpack said, and at this point I will bow out too as there is nothing left to say after so many threads.  Maybe others here can help you, I obviously can't.

[kmwondering]

did you miss the part where her doctors also told her she was well? that discussion is evidence of nothing, particularly nothing in your life. in my state, Medicaid has comprehensive mental health coverage. I hope you are approved and find the same.

[laura124]

I'm so sorry you feel this way right now.  Just remember, your symptoms are real and they are caused by stress, anxiety and depression.  It's normal to not want to feel that way.  Actually, I have similar symptoms at the moment.  I have better days then it reappears and I have very uncomfortable days.  Christmas day I swear I thought I was dying.  I woke up with a horrible chest pain on my left side that came in waves and I was crying all day.  I recognized it as anxiety but I'll tell you it was really bad! The Thursday after Christmas I jogged 5 miles, clearly someone gravely ill would not be able to do! 

The one thing I can tell you is in all my 15 years or so that I have had these physical symptoms which has caused HA, I have never doubted my doctor.  Yes, it's frustrating that you go to the doctor with these symptoms that are interfering with your quality of life and they test you and tell you that your healthy even though you feel like your dying.  And you just go back home feeling the same way.  So trust your doctor and know that it will pass. 

[Hton24]

Your heart is fine... You pay so much attention to it that your making it beat faster because your in panic or constantly checking all day. We tried everything to help you and you just refuse to take  any advice or listen. I completely understand how you feel because I am severe heart worrier but trust my doctors and specialists enough to know my hearts fine and its in my head.i do have afib but I don't let it get to me. Living everyday in constant fear is. No way to live I really hope and pray that you get the help you need and move on with life .... I wish you the best....

[AbnormallyAnxious]

How do I get rid of this choking, ticklish and nauseated feel in my throat? This morning right when I woke up and I swear I nearly threw up. I felt sooo nauseated and ill. Such a horrible situation to wake up to. Later on luckily I didn't puke but my throat still remains ticklish and tight.

And the reason I'm so concerned is because I've noticed a change in my pulse. In the past, when I was freaking out I look back know seeing I had nothing to even freak out about. I remember how my pulse was then, very very normal. It has changed dramatically. And I'm talking not about the speed, but the way my heart beats. I ask myself WHY the change?

Also, I was in the library looking for useful books, and I saw books that stated anxiety has a link to heart disease.. Good grief.

[MOchp]

How do I get rid of this choking, ticklish and nauseated feel in my throat? This morning right when I woke up and I swear I nearly threw up. I felt sooo nauseated and ill. Such a horrible situation to wake up to. Later on luckily I didn't puke but my throat still remains ticklish and tight.

And the reason I'm so concerned is because I've noticed a change in my pulse. In the past, when I was freaking out I look back know seeing I had nothing to even freak out about. I remember how my pulse was then, very very normal. It has changed dramatically. And I'm talking not about the speed, but the way my heart beats. I ask myself WHY the change?

Also, I was in the library looking for useful books, and I saw books that stated anxiety has a link to heart disease.. Good grief.

Of course anxiety and stress are linked to heart problems. If you go your whole life being overly stressed and anxious all the time it can have a negative effect on your health. This is honestly even more proof of how anxiety effects our bodies though. This doesn't mean that being anxious is going to cause you to all of a sudden have heart problems, they are talking about people who have went their whole lives always being overly stressed. Checking your pules while worried and anxious about your heart is a good way to feel things that aren't there.

[AbnormallyAnxious]

Checking your pules while worried and anxious about your heart is a good way to feel things that aren't there.

What exactly do you mean?

[MOchp]

Checking your pules while worried and anxious about your heart is a good way to feel things that aren't there.

What exactly do you mean?

I mean that you can feel what you believe to be an abnormal heart beat because when anxious your mind can play tricks on you. Just like people who constantly check their poop who are worried about GI problems and think their poop looks weird when it is totally normal. When you are worried about something, sometimes you see or feel things that aren't abnormal as abnormal.

[AbnormallyAnxious]

Can it actually change how it beats when you think about it? Like if you think you have a weak pulse, could you actually make yourself have a light fluttery pulse?

[MOchp]

Can it actually change how it beats when you think about it? Like if you think you have a weak pulse, could you actually make yourself have a light fluttery pulse?

I doubt you actually had a weak pulse, it was probably just how you percieved what you were feeling.